The Place Where Feelings Flown By Me

2010-04-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

its been ages since i posted .
so many things had happen (:
just like boonjian too haha .
i guess if he braced harder he will be able to pass through the rough patch in his life.life is just like that.all the unlucky things come in one way.they will keep hitting you until you finally realised how to stop it which normally takes a long time.it just keep hurting you until you really reached the bottom of the pit.sometimes even i still feel something about the past,upon seeing you.its been so long isn't it?you must feel bad about seeing things that once belongs to you go to others.its life too i guess.life just like to play games on humans .but if we just think in the other angle and do what you truly loves to do i guess life will be more meaningful.life's nowadays is seriously tiring.but so what?as long as i am still able to do the things i love and make everyone happy i dont see why i should say everyday is tough till the Os ends.i used to want everything,too greedy in fact that hurt so much people.upon thinking,maybe that's the grow up phase people says ba.now to see the past,its quite a ... nice past i guess compared to some others.but still,as human,we have to carry on with life no matter how tough its going to be.life is never simple i guess,even if you laughed everday.even laughing is exhausting after a long period of time.if you truly loves someone,its just enough to see her smiling.you wont have the thoughts of wanting her at all.seeing her smile , is all you wish .
work hard bahs boonjian . (:
bro.

2010-02-11T07:05:00.000-08:00

been so long since i blogged properly :D
now after i dota lerhs i have time i come post bahs i guess ;D
bad month january.
homework alot late pass up teachers keep complain.
jy to myself bahs .
i hope.
time will go faster.
i guess i am going to start studying for Os bahs .
(:
wonder when i can see .

2010-01-18T08:35:00.000-08:00

was talking to rick and zq although its already 12 + and tmr got a long way to go .
hahas .
rick's missing bebe again .
haiz . he felt so pain and i cant do anything although he's my bro for so long.
maybe somethings only other party can do ba , not us .
i told him bebe's gone .
he didn't believe .
he still think she is lost .
but i thk the reality is his lost .
but i cant do anything .
what a numb feeling .
....

2009-12-30T08:13:00.000-08:00

school reopen lol.
bo chup (:
hw haven touch .
lmao
what everyday maple .
audi + maple (: <3

2009-12-13T08:48:00.001-08:00

i am back :D
k i got nothing to say LOL.
all i know is that i now everyday maple only.
i only want to love her more and more everyday (:

2009-11-02T22:47:00.000-08:00

fuck myself seriously ...
明明知道自己不要别人走却什么都不能做只可以默默忍着又不可以对她好.
-.-"
wait my moodback lerh den i blog ba .
may take long or not coming back to blog lerhs.

2009-10-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

wow today's a long day .
suppose to have tution but nahhs i am too tired ..
somemore my mouth got elbowed ! LOLL !
my eyes are shutting off and its only 8.42 !
i dint even went for arcade practice ..
die lerh 1 day never practice means higher rate i will lose to those japanese -.-
can de la me ... loll ...
feel weak .. lol .
haha :D
no prob a good night rest and i will be ready to go ..
oh no !
tmr report book !
gg -.-
suan lerh i have no more tmr LOL ! .
muse ftw ^^

2009-10-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

hoho ! finally i think i post at least a post better for this month before someone kills me ^^
alright so many things happen ! haha !
i mean fun things ! {:
ok first i got myself into a hell lot of trouble for deciding to become th captain for the team in going against japan.
congrats to myself ! [:
next i went to bugis to own ppl in blazblue.fun siol lmao ^^ .
the atmosphere there makes you forget everything but only one thing - winning.
nothing else matters to you .
nothing is good enough for you .
except to win .
nothing else.
only winning is happiness when you are there .
even the most important things become the least important things .
everything is the reverse .
haha .
thats th power of oneself cultivation .
out of 23 competitons ..
won 9 out of 12 now .
won = 1st ^^ .
haha second and third no count la ..
sian siah lol !
how can lose !
haha [:
weeeee den junzhi lend me dota disk today !
lol ! :D
today after cip everyone run ! LOL !
so go home dota lorh ! LOL ! :D
ohya tmr is a happy day even though i have tution ...
because i getting back my dm deck from my cousin ! wee ! :D
so high siol lol ! :D
den friday go play basketball with everyone more song ! :D
no no no best part is wait till joey's poor lil leg recover we go out ! th gang ! :D
den chalet ! ;D no wild wild wet ... i dont want to get " wet " :X no thanks ^^
hehs :D
2 more days to school end.
school no more best .
no need early wake up.
but .. siala jess please ah ... dont come at 9 or 10 and wake me up ..
i want sleep de ....
snore :D
ohya wa sian siah suddenly if no school i cant disturb zoey annie they all ! argh !
no more entertainment ! D:
or cant play deck with everyone ! D:
ahh ! D:
i want play deck and disturb ! LOLL .
haiz but next year come better :D
den can see sec1 got pretty girls anot ^^ [ guy's instinct - pretty girls will be loved ]
real pretty girls hor ! self-assumed not counted ^^ must at least 5 peeps say den counted ! not disiao but from your heart de hor hor you know who :D
haha ok la no one knows ur identity better ! dont tell me you pretty next time ah !
no ah no girl no (:
cant ah ..
ok ... suddenly remember just now have a hand-to-hand spar with friend ..
miss those fighting days ! but its ok ! :D
dont fight better :X
lmao no you fight better (:
must remember i am not a good guy ... a bad guy maybe .
or worst . :D
tired larhs . today whole day so high lol . :D
no you (:
poof.

2009-10-07T08:36:00.001-07:00

exams counting down to over ! [:
tomorrow A-maths ..
wonder can pass not .. loll..
must pass larhs .. haiz .
:D

wow been long since i post loll.
....
faster friday afternoon bahs ..
still haven decide on going where ..
dang ...
but i sure taking one day out with junzhi :D
thx la bro ..
without you my chem will still be cmi now lehhs ..
(:

2009-09-22T09:26:00.000-07:00

wow tomorrow is chinese paper lerhs ...
maybe i am too lazy or my heart haven settled down to study ..
man .
i guess i can do it oo ..
ok ..
.__. ...

haiz .

2009-09-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

been long since i post ..
decided to post today bahs .
before i go to sleep .
today morning ..
something happened .
k skip that part .
npcc .
npcc unit overall i can see that h1n1 badly affected everyone .
everyone's standard seriously drop quite badly ..
haiz.
i dont want to slack anymore.
i want to help everyone get back to th standard we use to perform .
i really hope i could do it . (:
haha.

very tired now .
tomorrow still got npcc patrol ..
darn .
ily .

2009-09-06T21:35:00.000-07:00

you know how much i miss you by th night ...
darn .
nevermind .
you said you dont care anyway ..

2009-08-29T21:58:00.000-07:00

dam kevin .
he can't come to school for a week .
really feel empty on friday when i walked into th class.
its really so wierd.
i have been so used to see him everyday till ..
i feel really so ...
darn.
i just hope he is feeling alright .
it used to be chunyong..
now its him.
haiz.
SOMEMORE HE IS MY CLOSEST FRIEND IN 3/6 ._.
i think its because we play too much together .
hahas .
i'll miss you , bro .
i'm waiting for you .
come back real soon .
(:

days are terrible .
my rank of my new lars have finally went back from beginner to rogue.
finally my green rank is back .
what a terrible amount of time i suffered.
how great is that setback .
i don't know .
how much words have people said to hurt me .
i don't know either .
all i know is that .
i have gotten back to sq one now.

i would have give up th world just for you ,
i love you .

2009-08-26T08:03:00.000-07:00

alright last post before going do my portfolio !
have been chased badly by mr wee.
atrocious results !
haiz dont mention them lerhs.
faster finish portfolio means more sleep (:
oo today school is also so tiring.
actually everyday is.
haha {:
today npcc is so fun too !
sec 2s have to train for 2nd class drill badge
so i and kevin have to guide them along .
found out that they don't know much about sizing commands especially.
nvm everyone work hard ^^
asked them if they are tired and they say ; yes !
loll !
i shouldn't ask them that as their senior but ..
they seemed pitiful.
but ..
cant blame anything .
no one wished H1N1 would come ..
and principal stopped cca so the sec2s got many things to do.
Sec2 com work hard ! (:
*off to my coffee break :D
no larhs .
i'm there too (;
thanks dear for waiting for me (:
wanted to buy something ..
but she said too late...
so ..
tomorrow den buy ^^
LOL.
wondering should i ,
or should i not .
hmm ..
hmmm ...
hmmmm ....
still no idea oO.
k larhs !
i must work hard in th month before EOY .
time seemed to be running out for me.
but its ok .
i will chase time with my own means .
smile , sweetheart .
iloveyou ♥

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2009-08-20T06:33:00.000-07:00

hmm.i think i post first before studying biology bahs.
planning to study 2 hours straight.
:D
i know i'm hardworking (:
hmm today amaths is horrible !
not worth mentioning :D
lalala ~
fast forward to after school.
have tution today but i postponed it :D
slacked in school
and went home.
haiz.

everything excluding love (:
i suddenly miss ..
peiyi,
kevin,
joey,
chunyong,
junzhi,
anthony,
kianwee,
royce,
xiangqi,
erin,
serene,
syariff,
syakir,
sekeng,
felix,
junzhi
and such many more.
what happened to us?
what happened to th times we passed through webs of trouble as one,
what happened to th teamwork we have in going against teachers,
what happened to th joy we have?
everyone's so stressed up,
maybe we could have an outing like th past we do frequently ? (:
maybe all is th past and now is th future.
i know th first and last war of th class is still on.
i know all this will only end at th end of our 4th year .
i know.
let everything go k guys?
i can feel your tears and pain.
but thats th past isn't it?
hahas.
i know everyone could do it together .
but still.
i love my dear most ^^

how dark can it be with you beside me ? :D

2009-08-19T07:31:00.000-07:00

time passes really suddenly fast.
its has been 6 years since th incident.
i still cant forget that moment.
i know you are beside me.
i haven't seen you for 6 years.
but i know you have always been at my side.
i still held our promise 6 years ago.
although i am still small at that time.
that dosen't give me an escuse not to hold on to my promise.
i wonder how are you living in th other world.
....

today school is ok.
chemistry paper is terrible.
today is physics paper so i went to th library.
slacked there as usual and draw afew random minions
tomorrow is Amaths.
lolls.
nevermind larhs i try ..
after school...
talk alot things with bro.
idk why.
i really don't know.
it must have been we have been together and went through so much things together ,
till i can now easily feel how you are feeling.
th feelings in you is terrible.
it reminds me of th past.
the past that i would never want to go back.
you told me to treasure everything i had now.
i will rather lose everything den to lose something.
i find out we are from th same blood.
we are willing to go against th world just for th thing we love.
but why do guys with this kind of blood always suffer so much from young?
i dont know.
we had all went pass through so much in primary school.
its th same even in secoondary school.
th pain and agony that we had experienced.
i hope it will all be over soon .
i know you just had a simple wish ,
just like i do .
i know you are bleeding in your heart ,
i know you are sad deep in you.
so do i.
i feel a monster lurking deep in my heart.
been there ever since i started to become quiet.
at times i really don't feel like talking.
don't feel like seeing.
don't feel like thinking about anything.
just like you ,
that leds us to being brothers .
bro ,
you will let me down if you give up .
i will be your pillar you can lie on if you ever fall .
since you gently carried me ever since th past knocked me down .
and bring me to hope .
i will do th same .
i can't be sure of certain things ..
th way i talk is not motivating or anything.
but just come from th real feelings of my heart .
work hard .
i know we can overcome th demons in our hearts together .
right ?
i know its painful .
i know .
i really know.
but ..
if we never do it ..
we can never get rid of our sadness .
that leds us to become brothers of eternal hell .
hmm you know what i'm saying , bro.
i'll help you rise back to your feet .

ohmy .
dear ,
you are always in my heart .

kaichong.

2009-08-16T09:01:00.000-07:00

finally back home .
for some reasons i am not home ^^
alright .
tomorrow history lerhs i study half-half .
i think i still can make it bahhs ^^
must look at th bright side (:
when th english teacher want to see th 5 posts ._.
i thk my current posts flooding my 5 days-posts already larhs !
today ,
finally dumb become my dear ! (:
sounds like some fairytales but it isn't .
lolll !
aiyahhs i suddenly got alot mood to study.
but its late .
dear sleep lerhs .
k so left me in a dark room.
which is my room and i lazy on lights ._.
so ...
i want to say .
sweetdreams , dear {:
* although i know you are sleeping like a log now [:

2009-08-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

today is a fun day ..
except my gastrics clinging to me th whole day ,
but i still can bear .
i can.
today go play basketball one match only ..
lolls.
went home then .
:D

i am ok ,
i have trusst in you .
really .
just because i love you .
only that reason .
nothing else .

2009-08-13T02:04:00.000-07:00

you said you don't like me to be with other girls ,
you mean i like it when you are with other guys ?
every minute bites into me .
i feel like talking with you .
everytime i turned in front ,
you are talking happily with others lerhs .
suan lerh bahs .
first you have different feelings ,
next this .
i also don't know what i should do lerh .

2009-08-12T04:16:00.000-07:00

sorry but everyone who pass by this blog please sms me your number and your name thanks lots .

kaichong ,
i still love you.

2009-08-11T06:13:00.001-07:00

please add mysticlurve@hotmail.com in your msn as that will be the msn i will be using from now on .
thanks for your time (:

2009-08-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

[ Day 5 ]
My head hurts even more than on thrusday so i didn't went to school ,
missed the NDP haha nevermind :D
went to see doctor in the morning ..
waited for a long time because there many more people like me in the clinic .
a kid was singing michael jackson's billie jean and doing moonwalk .
everyone was laughing like ..
so small yet he can do moonwalk?
doctor gives me medicine and off i go ..
and eat lunch ._.
when home and played computer because there is really nothing to do .
went to hear Adam lambert's songs .
so what if he is a gay ?
there is nothing wrong being a gay .
he is born to be .
it is not something he wished for .
what matters is his voice .
which make people fall in love with it .
Adam tried so hard to make people become mesmorised with his vocal.
it is seriously very beautiful .
his emotions can really be felt when he sings .
this is genuine singing .
those in fact overshadowed the fact he is a gay .
at night i went to th arcade to see if there is anyone there .
lols everyone is there :D
make me feels so happy idk why .
i mean .
talking to my friends there really make me feels like..
i'm back in my home .
even th stupidest jess would wait for me .
haha thanks larh
dont say i always bad to you ._.
sometimes some people really important in my life .
like ping , liang , esmond and alex ...
idk how explain .
the friendship can't be describe by mere words .
sometimes we quarrel and bicker ..
stayed overnight at ea other house ..
disturb ea other ..
go out with ea other ..
how can i ever experience such a ... feeling that even couldn't be describe .
it's so better going with you guys den pretty girls .
( jess i not referring to going out with you not good hor ._. )
i hope .
we will be eternal friends .
even if i die .
serious (:

i swear .
kaichong (:

2009-08-05T23:28:00.000-07:00

[day 4]
should i say i am happy or sad .
i can't go to school today ,
my gastrics got worse till i can't even get out of bed
and walk to the toilet to wash up even .
so i need to bear with the pain and close my eyes .
i tried .
to fall asleep
but only succeed after a long time .
when i wake up ,
hahas many people sms me asking why din't i go to school.
thanks everyone
and Jess ..
you came to my house just now ? ._.
how you know i got gastrics before even i tell you -.-
thats stupid ._.
spent the whole morning using the com obviously .
skipped the 2 periods of maths i abit worry idk why also .
lollls.
everyone is still in school now ...
but its ending soon in 15 mins .
haha .
but ...
about tomorrow NDP ...
i dont know .
i feel so LOL about it .
can't explain why .
its so ... WIERD .
LOLLL.
just now i drew quite a bit and listen to MJ and other artistes songs .
wonder if i spell that right oO .
alright :D
have tution later at 5 ...
i now still feel abit giddy ...
giddy still have go tution ._.
have to grumble liao LOL.
:D at night need chiong all my chinese homeworks ...
maybe i will continue to be sick tomorrow idk my body too .
haha .
normally 7 wake up ,
i feeel soooo lethargic .
but today idk why .
8pm wake up ,
i feel extremely refreshed :D
i am up on task again (:

kaichong xD

th reason i love you is not for just that 3 words.
i'm strong and fine now after a day .
thanks everyone .
especially you ,
xoxo .

2009-08-05T05:17:00.000-07:00

[day 3]
ohno its late.
not really.
i am just beat after a whole day.
today my great grandmother is cremated..
and i am in school for NDP ..
does that makes me a sinner ?
i'm sorry ,
but all is useless now,
i cant reverse time.
but i need to carry on life,
my mum cried quite badly,
which makes my heart really heavy,
really can't concentrate during lessons whenever,
i thought of her face filled with tears .
i would use my hands to wipe it off for her ,
and tell her not to cry ,
it isn't anyone's fault ,
my greatgrandmother's getting old...
argh..
i am really getting to tired. D:

school was alright .
morning i did silent reading .
hard to find articles of pollution
but managed to find one with the help of iskandar.
after silent reading is maths.
was really tired because of yesterday ..
but i braced on ,
i tried to listen ..
kinda flunkked in my trigo .
made me more tired .
after maths is chemistry ..
and titration again ..
haiz ..
got the bes titration results quite far from ms wong ..
dosen't matter really too .
i don't know why i feel that way too .
recess i just sat there .
blank-minded .
staring into space .
drew what i wanted to draw .
POA next ...
too boring ..
then its chinese .
i forgot to bring my whole chinese worksheets and file
teacher let me off ..
not even 5 mins after school ..
i got pulled to NDP parade ..
marched quite abit and they called it a day.
heard from others that on wednesday when i'm in funeral ..
the GOH contigent was treated like dogs..
haiz .
Drawing can really show what's a mind is thinking .
i really love drawing different hairstyles.
drawing can help me ease time too .
and can help in not letting me fall asleep .
but still .
i'm tired .
hahas .
i'll try .
i will ..
to stay awake .

my heart's always there for you ,
no matter when my physical is beside you or not .
i'll never stop being there for you ,
neither will i go away ,
i'm sorry if i make you feel angry or sad sometimes .
but ,
iloveyou ♥

2009-08-05T03:23:00.000-07:00

nice michael jackson movie in collision with pokemon (:

2009-08-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

SO.
today is DAY 2.
3 more days to go ._.
i am in a funeral right now so i need to finish this thing fast ..
sorry teacher.

alright today ..
i woke up feeling tired.
i reached school feeling dead.
inside out.
i think i am worn out from school.
sat beside samuel and taught him abit of maths.
i forgotten quite alot myself.
then it was H'cube period.
aiyah too boring to worth mentioning ._.
then english.
do the comprehenshion.
managed to finished in time and hand up to Mr yao.
later i bring home then gone missing then you going to call my name in class again ._.
then it was maths.
aiyah got suprise maths test den i forgotten quite alot like i said..
next biology woots teacher never come ,
so sleep in class to preserve energy..
then recess.
went to see people play chess...
then humanities my teacher Mr Lim also never come.
but my stupid gastrics come O_O'''
i really cant take it so i tried to at least close my eyes as teacher say do your own things.
then really cant lerhs go lend panadol from someone .
thanks :D
morning i forget to eat my own medicine ...
aiyahs anyway now also no more lerh :D
Then POA .
TEACHER NEVER COME AGAIN .
lol.
so the sub teacher teach lorhs .
aiyah after a long day so tired plus somemore still abit gastrics so half asleep through lesson.
then after school.
got NDP training but i din't go .
i can't go .
i got funeral to attend .
lolls...
then i went home and changed my clothes and..
i went to TiongBahru.
it was SO far away from sembawang ._.
sleep throughout the train.
too dead from mornining till then.
even till now i don't feel like talking .
idk why .
just dont feel like really talk .
lolls.

kaichong (:

i will be there for you.
i just dont feel like talking
maybe its about ytd .
maybe its about today .
maybe its the future .
love may be a hard word to use
but for you ,
i am able to commit .
<3

2009-08-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

... i shall do my english online blogging on my blog bahs .
Day 1 -

today is a quite a bad day.i woke up late as i slept late.then at 7pm there is a meeting for npcc secondary 3 to go but i didn't attend.i was too tired then.i really couldn't wake up.everyday also has a bad headache.School was as boring as usual.PE wasn't any fun.i couldn't laugh like normal although i wanted too.English was quite alright.Recess i went to play basketball.i don't know but sweat quite alot.Lessons after recess are chemistry,Maths and Biology.We did chemistry speed tests.Maths we covered 7.5 on Cosin.Biology we did the food practical that tests whether different types of food include different types of things like protein and so on.after school,i sit down in the school canteen for awhile.played basketball at around 4pm.was really tired than but...nevermind i just go on bahs.played for quite long like till 8pm plus.i was sitting 962 back home when i found out i am really very tired already.When i reached home,i used computer which is quite obvious and i watched youtube because i don't feel like playing any games.

i'm really on quite a loss i think .
sometimes i don't know what i'm thinking either .
in the past its been like that .
the current me it still remains in me.
who am i and what have i been doing all this while.
sometimes,
i really hoped that once i sleep ,
i will never wake up anymore.
i don't belong to this world anymore.
what's wrong with me for people just joking with me,
why do i get so hot-tempered.
why am i doing all this.
i don't know.
i don't know what am i leading my life for .
what's so good about having everyone with me,
what's so bad about having everyone with me.
damn .
it seriously is irony enough.
i love you ,
i do ,
since you said i didn't treasure you ,
let me treasure you now .

once , a fish told the sea ; " You can't feel my tears when i am crying because you dont understand me ."
The sea told the fish ;"i can , because you have always been in my heart".

yeah thats all .

2009-07-31T06:01:00.000-07:00

today's so epic .
during recess ..
sorry dumb , i feel guilty D:
after school got ndp ...
never ending ..
but hahas she wait for me so ...
of course happy :D
den after walk her to th library got 514 .
first match cant score a thing .
warm-ed up with zhenshen .
den we play 6v6 at end ..
me , kevin , boonjian , sekeng , zhenshen and yaoxiang ..
but yaoxiang ahem ! *
then boon me sekeng and kevin tmr going competition,
npcc basketball :D
so ....
i'm really waiting for tmr ..
but every second,
no matter what happened ,
70% of my mind will be filled with you (:
<3

2009-07-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

i was asked to post by someone really cool . :D
so i thk ...
everyday is so tiring .
but its ok .
i love my dear dumb :D

2009-07-25T08:52:00.000-07:00

tomorrow ..
just hours later .
i am going to be together as one with my dear friend lars again ..
just hours to go ...
bet someone is sleeping like a dead log on th bed now ..
hahas ...
i'm still here with you even when you are sleeping ,
dumb (:

2009-07-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

hmmmm...
its still so early D:
i'm wondering if i should close down th blog ..
anyway its boring ...
haha :D

2009-07-25T00:40:00.000-07:00

life's back to normal .
i can do things back again ..
thks james , for staying a night with me .
hahas .
promise you i'm going to get back to th league with you guys k ?
i know its been hard on you guys without me .(:
thats what you said ytd LOLLL. (:
ok larh .
later i make another lars card can ? :D
R.H.L.P.D.J sq ftw (:
Dess i thk i owe you alot this time ...
maybe i can teach you something ? :D
or i can cook for you hahas .
jess too (:
wait no .
i cooked for you that time when you are sick so ...
no more :D
james ahhhhh .... you wont want it hor ? :3
i will go back to th team .. (:
i will i will :D
th day's shining brighter than ever .
to me .
with or without you .
together with everyone .

2009-07-24T22:37:00.000-07:00

where are you ?
i miss you ...
i dont feel like doing anything without having you ..
i cant do anything right ..
i dont feel like going out ..
i cant sleep at all .
D:
i'm having a heavy heart all day long ..
i would rather have everything lost than you ... ):

2009-07-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

what should i say about what you say ?
you wrote so long but i only got so little to say .
i'm sorry ,
i say those things ,
because ...
i only don't want to hurt you ,
but since you felt so hurt ...
maybe i say too much at times i know i know ..
but ...
sincerely .
from th bottom of my heart ;
i love you .
i do .
i know you had a hard time ,
i know you are a good girl ,
i know i aren't that good either ,
i know i aren't a perfect guy ,
but what i only wanted is you to happy ,
many people say i'm heartless when i am angry or sad ,
but no one knows that i am still caring alot about you even then ,
i appears to not see anything and be oblivious ,
but actually i know more that you actually do ,
i know i was hurt you with words ,
i know i know it could be hurting sometimes ,
but i am really always there for you i swear ,
i aren't joking this time ,
i seriously will be there for you ,
no matter what i'm doing .
no matter how important things are to me ,
even during th midst of my competition ,
i would give up everything ,
just for you .
i meant every word i said .
i really love you alot .
just that .
i am really fretting out lots of things ,
i promise not to hurt you anymore ,
dont like this anymore kkaes ?
i admit i'm at fault .
i do i do .
i don't care what others say about me ,
as a bad friend or whatever ,
as long i have you with me .
i always seemed to be far away from you ,
but actually my heart and soul have always been beside you .
maybe i said too much ,
maybe you cant believe i am such a person ,
but its ok .
i'll listen to you no matter what .
no matter what you choose to do .
i'm sorry , my dear girl .
iloveyou .
really .
i don't know what is up with me to hurt you either ...
really ...
man ....
forgive me , dumb ):
you know ..
i really feel guilty .
thats why i din't talk to you just now ...
):

don't go k ?
i plead you this time D:
you meant th world to me ..

2009-07-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

SHUT UP EVERYONE ._.
STOP SPAMMING ME IN MSN AND MAPLE AND KEEP CALLING ME T_T .
i am tired ...
my love is .... ):

2009-07-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

They say love is a battlefield ,
what rubbish ,
i would rather say love is nothing at all ,
it has no boundaries ,
there are no particles to it ,
just you and me .
i know ,
love's really dumb sometimes ,
i don't know what i'm doing either ,
days just past and i finally know ,
i am actually ,
doing nothing at all ,
do i love you ?
i don't know .
all i know is i miss you alot .
i want to spend every moment with you ,
but that's dumb ,
you got your own freedom ,
and i aren't overbearing ,
i would rather ,
time passes ,
as so , maybe some days ,
some time ,
some minutes ,
hours , seconds , months , years even .
i think i will still be there for you ,
if you need me .

2009-07-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

i don't understand .
i took so much effort to get her out of my life ,
and you keep want to put it back .
you aren't helping me ,
but making things worse .
i'm so happy without her coming and mess my life .
so just leave it ,
can ?
don't put things difficult for me please .
i am having enough troubles everywhere now .
dont do it anymore , can ?

...... what kind of world am i living ,
problems just come everyday ,
everywhere ,
arcade ,
school ,
home ,
everywhere ...
just what the hell have i been doing .
punching the wall wouldnt help me but at least it eased th pain in my heart .

2009-07-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

so i'm an idiot afterall .
alright .
i go sleep lerhs .

dont worry i won't .
i promise ,
because ...
i got someone that had been in my mind so !
i am off to bed .
goodnight dumb (:
you know who you are haha :D

2009-07-18T03:01:00.000-07:00

what's life ? this is coolest things among all .

thats th best transformation . my love (:

2009-07-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

okay i suddenly decided to post . changed everything . even th links . i change to th links i may go . so ... if dont have ur link you may complain in th tagbox . lollls . bye (:

Blogging is suddenly so dumb .

2009-06-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

hahas midnight post again :D
back today by midnight again .....was in little ping's house from 2pm to 12.30am midnight today ... except from 8-10 at night where i go arcade ... hmm my tekken skills gradually coming back lerhs . hahas . although my lars rank still master but hahas i can feel th raise back lerhs . soccer leh ? aiyahs i lost to a noob just now . lmao . i lose i still laugh , nothing to be sad about ...hmmm tmr going with serene they all to movie tomorrow .... yeah ...

i promise ,
i will treat you better for everything ,
i will listen to you for almost everything ,
i will study extremely hard ,
don't worry about me anymore k ?
Dad and mum ?
love you .
its true . i really do treasure both of you .
thanks sweeties .
i am happy to have both of you .
yeah ! (:

2009-06-22T11:07:00.000-07:00

i decided to post ! :D
had fun ytd with everyone at sembawang beach .
went into th sea for like 3 hours plus after th rain .
During th rain our tent got soaked in water badly and everyone ran out ,
luckily we hide ourself under some MANMADE shelter eh ? lollls .

esmond and weiliang ! :D

my good old bro , little ping :D

another good old bro , esmond (:

everyone squeezing in th tent during th rain , too bad th tent inside also got flood ._.

tszping hiding in a wrapper , thinking of it as a poncho under th heavy rain .

ping stuck as he really have no where to go anymore under th rain :D

he is coming towards us . oh :D

raining badly there and he got lots of moods under th manmade shelter to eat ._.

everyone playing after th rain , posing aka bucketman , umbrellaman and beggar :D

everyone staring into th sea , deciding whether to go in or not .

ahhs i lazy to post other pics .... tired . (: sayonara everyone . hahas .

2009-06-18T09:33:00.000-07:00

today is a bad day . my Lars just got demoted from rogue to master . haiz . from green drop to silver . guess i become a noob . haiz . just change th blog first song .

shayne ward's breathless .

really nice song ... tmr's a long day . i think i will defend my title tomorrow bahs ... man .. i got nothing left anyway .

i believe th wind will guide me to a world that rightfully i belonged .

2009-06-17T09:07:00.000-07:00

hmm..just change th song of this blog . i really like th current song now . if it's th past me , i will like it more because .. its really nice . hahas . th lyrics are good too . it is sung by th 2005 X factor winner Shayne Ward . he is really good . and that's his debut song . it explains his feeling at that time.

Hmmmm yea yea yeaaa
You know where I come from
You know my story
You know why I'm standing here
Tonight
Please don't go
Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear
Make it right

Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something Worth reaching for

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Please don't go
You know that I need you
I can't breathe without you
Live without you
Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
No more

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up , oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Well I won't stop believing That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you I'll mean it forever and ever Ever
and ever
I'm not here to say I'm sorry

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through (Oh I'm ready)
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul (That's why I'm here babe)
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
That's my goal

th song is really nice . i really love it . i would have think about th same thing in th past . but not now . i'm someone that walk back into th past . once gone , gone . i wouldn't go back to th past days ever again .

lets work hard , lars .

2009-06-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

finally , i'm back .
This STC seriously have been extremely meaningful .i finally found my answers to all my questions.i should always challenge myself to beyond my limit and i must never be happy about being th me now.seeing all my long-lost friend in my path of experiencing life makes me so happy.like Bernard or Sam , my long time friends gone suddenly but seeing them and talking with them makes me so happy . seriously . able to laugh with everyone over stupid things , going pass my mental and physical strength with experiences like th intermediate rope elements and being fooled by officers to sleep in shelters and so-on really gives me wonderful experience with everyone.its true . Area 13 is new .but still , we worked together so well , i guess thats fate . there is a tunnel we had to pass through too . its very dark and you can't see th surroundings.i , kevin , darren , syariff , boonjian and nigel was suppose to pass it as a team.and inside th tunnel where you can't see a thing , we need to rearrange ouselves.of course darren rearranged till 1 , i be 2 , nigel 3 , kevin 4 , syariff 5 and boonjian 6 . dam funny.its dam dark den inside th tunnel got slopes.we go up th slope.suddenly.we got caught by suprised.there are million of balls on th floor and we cant even crawl properly and we were all over th place and keep cant go up cos th balls are making us lose balance . then syariff despo and anyhow throw th ball all to th back . then just nice boonjian is behind him and got hit by rapid fireballs.i and darren passed already and then darren leave th other end.i was about to leave when i saw nigel struggling down dere cos kevin is also pulling him.so i went and pull him up.a ball suddenly came to my hand and i threw it straight in kevin's face . LOL.Then there is also th nightwalk.its quite fun and i paired up with nigel.we passed through all th difficulties in th dark , together . then we played concentration with rahayu they all at th other end waiting for everyone.even th officers laughed at our fun and wanted to join in . so memorable . then all our meals are so badly ration-ed.but still , i guess we did survive in th camp.th intermediate rope challenge regained my confidence today as we had to walk on a rope only in like 12 - 16 feet off th ground ? dam scary . really need alot strength in hands to support yourself as you wouldn't want to fall off . Then still got jetty jump ! WOO ! (: dam fun.i straight away volunteer myself to jump as first few LOL. i jump off from th jetty , so fun (: actually i wanted to get wet , counted as a bath (: Campfire was also really enjoyable.really.came from th bottom of my heart.sleeping in tents aren't bad either.now i think sleeping in tents is a kind of happiness too .have i become a jungle man like kean hou already? hahas .
thanks everyone ,
for this beautiful camp .
i'm tired ,
but i finally got th strength to move along ,
because i know i have everyone with me ,
may all our strength cover our weakness ,
so we can reach our dream ,
to maintain th gold that's we already had ,
oh dear god (:

oh ya ! my instructor is really beautiful and is really cool too . really ! th moment you see her you will say she have a .... erm .. sexy look i think .. but she is really cool . really .
but our group ADiamond is COOL , even SEXIER , BEST among all (:
lets work hard , everyone .

2009-06-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

ohwell , guess i am fated to go to STC tomorrow with everyone . i don't know why , but i prefer staring into space more than going on an adventure nowadays . maybe all my active cells are dead . i just want to .. sit in a corner , feel th wind and have a good sleep . thats all i wished for .

well well everyone has problems and problems never stop occurring . 85% of your life is filled with problems.10% are filled with waiting for others and boredom whereas 5% includes your happy moments , nope maybe lesser (:

hahs since everyone has problems filled in their lives...why not everyone move together as one to solve th problem and need to eliminate each other to get their own goal ? i know everyone's waiting for me on th road . suddenly , th old song of choonlong's blog is good .

I don't want to miss a thing - aerosmith

have been listenining to this song again and again . its true actually . i don't want to miss anything in my life too . i want a fun-filled life , but everyone has their own darkness in their heart . how to expel it ? everyone has a unique and different way of expelling it . me ? i don't know . i am still on th road in finding . STC , i got no choice but to go along with you .

help me find back my courage and positiveness can ?
i don't want to rely on my 6th sense on everything .
my dreams don't come true always .
goodnights .
hope my brothers are sleeping well now .
i love all of them .
yeahs .

2009-06-07T10:17:00.000-07:00

yo everyone {: midnight post again ! so excited about tomorrow ! playing basketball with everyone again . ohwell ... just now went to arcade at 8 + with liang . woah suddenly got KOF fever again (: feel so great bout it ! (: this is th happiest time of my life , being able to play with them . wooo ! [: den went to ping house . watch tv and do many others things . then went home . ohwell [: watch friday night smackdown ! hahs . hope time move faster . (:

life seemed great but i hope i can meet a babe tomorrow (: a real pretty . ohgosh , i'm sleeping in my lalaland again .. but .. are there still babes around ? (: you know , real cool !

2009-06-06T09:41:00.000-07:00

yo guys (: hahas.now already midnight lerh.just back from ping house.watch him play garena again.haha dam funny.th game got naruto and flying sheep in it.and th flying sheep is NOOB :D th pa (phantom assassin) ulti was freaking hilarious.seriously.ahs.today had tution.sit there and play with my psp anyway ._. then ! today th arcade uncle change th level of th king of fighters maximum impact regulation A computer level from 3 to 6.i thought aiyah computer only.no kick.then.i go try first time.i died at stage 7.wtf was that man ._. th special from 1 bar hits 3/4 of my life.my special from 4 bars hit only 1/16 of th computer's life.so imba.i heng people's character cant hit so much.if not hiong liaos (: OOH (: finally got back what i need to do in life.first.to get enough sleep (:
sayonara kind souls (:

choonlong wrote this in his blog -
boonjian:oopx ! he can only touch the ring by abit after using so much effort .. so suay .. he can't feel the feeling of dunking

sibei funny (: thanks xiaolong . that quote u wrote made my day :D i can sleep better (:

2009-06-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

today was a so ... so .... tiring day . early in th morning , after playing rockband unplugged (nice game , don't miss it (: ) i found out my memory card got problem ! i was panicking and faster run to sun plaza to buy a new one . formatted it and can play already . so meet joey at sportslink at 12.30 so we can go 514 there to play basketball.wayne came too.took 962 there with those 2.played quite a well , no , very long there . then suddenly zhenshen says want to go admiralty play basketball . my eyes from ._. become O.O . lols . so aiyah just go bahs.played basketball again with jun/hui wen , zhenshen and choonlong bahs.quite ok.just bullying my sister is fun (: loll.then i went home and lay on my bed.then weiliang came to my house and help me reformat and update my psp version to 5.darn.then i went to ping house at 9++.then , i on rockband and played.suddenly.i want go back to NBA ballers rebound (highly recommended game) then WTH.my psp cant read memory card again.my eye from ._. turn to O.O again .i was like WHAT TH-HELL?!then ping tell me because th rockband got problem . i was like from ._. to =.=" and to solve it just need to reformat my memory card.i wasted money buying another one.lols.see him play garena then went home at 12.30am.wanted to sleep but was bored so i blogged about my boring life.bear with me bahs,kind souls (:
[:
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2009-05-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

hmm been long since i post.many things had happened from my last post to now.man.it has been how many days.but still ! many things ... th BIG npcc secret was discovered , my results , my title defence , problems here and there with friendships , fevers , dislocated and sprained hand , problems about almost everything , npcc ... school almost everything part in my life has a problem to it . well ... tired after so many things that just pass soon.but still.hope to still be able to be myself and not someone i tried to be-there's no need to do things for others,human beings are supposed to be self-centred . i'm me and no one could be me . no one including you , you know who you are . you can't mimic my skills well . you can't talk like me , although you are good , i admit . a real pro is one who don't rely on anyone . i don't rely on cheating money from girls . i don't rely on others to improve myself . i don't suck myself up to other people to bring my skills to a higher level . i on believe myself . someone who gets something out from others , real pathetic . even in studies seriously , you don't even have money to pay for your own school fees. thats pathetic . i could work even with one hand down . i could work for others even with one calf injured . i don't rely on girls to get my money , never am i a swindler or a girl-dependent dog like you . i am happy with my friends and i don't suck up to anyone unlike you . you can never be th king . you aren't th calibre . if you don't even understand th true meaning of being independent . thats sad . i couldn't help you.but its ok for me , as human only care about themselves at th end.nothing is real in life . except life skills you carry along with you . enough man . you have been adding so much rubbish in my life . you are so desperate to th extent you try to snatch someone important to me ? oh . i would just have beat you down with just one hand , reliant pest.seriously , you just wasted 4 minutes of my life.you don't deserve it , you never do.
i will give up everything to get it back.

2009-05-13T03:53:00.000-07:00

yeahhs...wonder where everyone gone to after school.lucky got anthony,sister and queen with me :D siala today chemistry paper fun lah.history more fun.so easy.confirm high marks.aiyah.later study bio and blah.stupid gastrics pain until i want go arcade also can't.tmd. miss fighting with people all of a sudden.hahs.decided to go back to rakion.go there sometimes own people sometimes i got owned myself.rofl.funny cycle.

hmm...after exams....wa i miss touching th basketball at cy's house.lols.so long no shoot 3 point liaos.siala.arcade also....but exams so fun siah.lols.after exams npcc come back even more song :D hehs.k la.i study bio awhile den i go play rakion.

wonder Queen's handphone still charging.good siah you peii me.i'm sooo happy (:

2009-05-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

hahas :D th champ is back . won first in 2009 bugis competition (: wakakas :D but then ... haiz . th reason that why i in this competition gone so ... i guess i can say i joined this competition for fun ! (: aiyahs.when i go back sembawang seems like ... home feeling (: saw jianwei playing blazblue and draw with him 1;1 . aiyahs.... (: kinda like th virtual striker 4.think i will play tht bahs.my new leash of life lehs (: hehs.smiles [[:

getting first is cool [: but .... its me afterall {:

2009-05-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

hi peeps!the owner of this blog wanted his blog dead but i aren't going to allow it (:
i guess he is playing basketball now ....
should i go down and find him ?

♥

2009-05-05T05:09:00.000-07:00

man..this has not been a good week for me.Monday was terrible and today was just worst.early in th morning,i forgotten to bring my wallet to school.means no money for everything,transport,recess,lunch and all.temperature check.my temperature just can't go up.just let me get th dam swine flu larhs.then exams were easy to deal with but not my split headaches.using a metal ruler to pierce my side of th head th whole time to ensure th headache don't affect me.recess.dealing with more headaches.then its english paper 2.headaches were gone but feel really worn out.fainted after doing th summary till th time's up.at lunch my gastrics come.it was worst than before.clinging on to my stomach.didn't know that eating spicy stuffs will cause it to be more pain and i ate laksa with more chilli.really can't tolerate after eating laksa so just stuffed myself with kaya toast and not think about anything.Chemistry supplementry lesson was tiring and boring as well.The mole concept?wth?i would rather go home and heal my gastrics.staggered back home and..slept...slept...with my handphone's music player on and on.

it's really tiring that no one is talking.i decided not to drag this anymore.you want to care,or not want to care,its up to you.for me,your decision is mine.

2009-05-04T08:15:00.000-07:00

everything's just going fine (: well . tomorrow english exams lerhs . nevermind . all will go well (: uhhs.
nights everyone (:

yerhs chun , it ain't worth it being sad over love , so don't sad . love isn't a real reason of being sad, its you that caused you to be sad.love is just like a cactus.don't think of it at all , you won't be hurt at all.it will never be a reason for sadness ehs . stay happy . thoughts-free like me :D

brace up xuan [:

2009-05-01T09:30:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0TdBXPN5TY

nice song with alot meanings.if you want it english subs can sms me (:
goodnights everyone.
ohyeah,thanks to tszping and weiliang,
to pass today with me,
th lowest point of my life,
thanks guys.
i found out relationship aren't everything,
if it wasn't without for you too,
i will still continue to sink in th dark,
thanks for showing me th way.
yeahs (:
come back soon,yuxuan (:

2009-04-30T22:29:00.000-07:00

well , historical people said that everything has a start and will have an end too.its true anyways.no matter what you are thinking you are doing,there will always be an end to it.you sleep and you will woke up eventually.you tried to find something in your pencil case and even if you did not find th thing you wanted to,you will still stop ransacking your pencil case.you will always be able to stop eating after you are full.you will always leave th computer alone when you are not using it.there will always be an end to relationships.even life will end with death and well,being able to end something is actually something to be happy about.happy that you have once have it,happy that you have walked a different path from others,happy that you have gained different personal experience from others,happy to know that some are real friends while some aren't.i am happy that i have passed so much , not because of th experiences i get,not because i have past a relationship,not because i won in th competition,not because i get passed all my exams,not because i am able to slack around,just because..my mother bored me and thats enough for me to be happy about.i am happy that i'm experiencing life,regardless of its stressful,relaxing,happy,sad,torturing and so on.life is just something that contains everything in one.just like there will be rainbow after rain due to reflaction,th sun will come back eventually to give out its light to everyone.that's th happiness of life.

2009-04-30T03:55:00.001-07:00

uhhs semi finals around th corner . exams too . hahas (: no sweat . don't feel a thing . temporarily .. (: played netball with boonjian,renjie,kevin,choonlong,farhan,khairul,atik,ruben,arhjun and felix.WOOO (: so happy . ahhs . life is always relaxing . its just that you thinked too much tht stressed . homeoworks ? ahhs . lets go (: ohyahs ! go arcade first [: well , blame it that like xiangxun says , i'm smart as i am proud to be a left-hander (: aiyahs , exams ? come on ._. you cant ruin my life with exams (:

2009-04-29T09:23:00.000-07:00

sit joey's car to school today.well,well (: temperature taking ! my thermometer says i'm 35.6 degrees!ms sim was shocked and gave me tht face again.then she use th "ear" thermometer and my temperature is 35.9 degrees.she says its too low,and i bo hiu her [: den its maths.ahhs.half-alived.den double period english.half dead. [: recess din't see wife.wells.must have ran-somewhere.would have played soccer instead 0: then its chemistry.ms wong noisy down there i sleeping.then during chinese,hands were so tired after writing so much of correction for wrong words.ahs.dhen mr wee buy macs for us as we have supplementry from 2-5.quite boring starting and at th end fun [: was disturbing seiyi and shurong half of th lessons [: hehs.after that went back home with kevin.at home,i felt so bored that i decided to play with a pen.and decided to go out instead,better then rotting at home.so i went arcade to find everyone.well.expected.everyone was there.uncle's taokaka improved until so much.i almost can't cope already hahas. [: jianwee was pestering me as usual.he's th real dweeb.(: went home at 10,feeling happy.hope tomorrow will be happy day.happy days ahead (:

2009-04-28T02:51:00.000-07:00

hmm.today is quite a day.slowly day by day i guess i am beginning to fall in love with 3/6.people there are so...sweet (: morning saw someone throw litter into our class.everyone in 3/6 was like dam angry.since th person who throw th litter into our class's class always promote themselves whye dun dey throw into their own classroom?nahs duwan ruin my mood.H3 was dam funny.kevin was punished to face th wall.jianqi toos.hahas.dam many funny incidents happened but well.those are my memories.POA was ok..busy drawing cash book.maths was dam hard to understand.E maths somemore.th graphs i forgotten 90% of it.well.recess wanted to play soccer but it happens to rain.ohwell.then humanities.quite boring and hard to bear.biology was quite ok today.because we are talking th whole double period.told you my class is cool (: then after school.well...went to talk with some sec1 girls and played soccer with atticus,ruben,samuel and arhjun.later when 3/5 dismissed well jonas gary they all came.quite fun.hahas.then went home lorhs! going arcade later..geez.
yuxuan,don't be sad anymore larhs....
Siaozharbor shhh.....
why have i become so paranoid and easily jealous.this isn't me.i wasn't like that.what gotten into me?

2009-04-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

someone keep rushing me to do what quiz dunno for what but well , do finish lerhs den you won't nagged at me anymore.hahas [:

Love life!
1.Are you single or taken ? - stupid question ._.
2.Have you been in a relationship with a girl/boy before? - yes
3.What do you see in a girl/boy at first sight? - i don't even know myself.
4. Has anyone confessed to you before ?- yes
5. Has anyone said you were very handsome/pretty ?- ya ._.
6. If you were forced to like someone in secondary school , who will it be ? - i love my wife ._.
7. Has any boy/girl kissed you before ?- this question disgusts me ._.
8. Do you like someone of the opposite gender ?-i wonder what led me to do this quiz now ._.
9. Who is the most handsome/pretty in your heart ?- my wife ._. faster finish lehs ._.
10.What will you do if your girl/boy murders someone ? - i will help her take th rap .

YOUR LIFE !
1. How tall are you ?- 174 cm
2. Whats your weight ?- 55 kg
3. Do you have short , medium or long hair ?- almost going to have no hair lerhs ._.
4. Do you like make-ups ?- its th worst thing ever on earth
5. Would you rather eat or sleep ?-sleeping is my hobby ._.
6. Would you rather cheat or steal ?- i would continue to sleep ._.
7. How long do you bathe ?- 1 to 5 mins?
8. Whats your hobby ?- i thought i just told you i love sleeping ._. , basketball
9.Do you prefer to stay at home or go out?- see my mood larhs.should be go out.
10. Do you like ice-cream ?- ya , after sports.

FRIENDS !
Who is the prettiest ?-my wife
2. Who is the most handsome ?- my wife is handsome too ._.
3. Who is the smartest ?- there's no one smarter than me.
4. Who is the stupidest ?- th one who tricked me into doing this quiz.you know who you are ._.
5. Who is the most popular girl and boy in class ?- obviously th prettier ones ? ._.
6. Who is well-liked by opposite gender ?- i don't even understand your question.
7. Which boy and girl are you closest to ?- girl arhs ...i am close to many lehs.maybe junwen bahs
8. Who is the most hated boy/girl ?- you can't possibly call me to say out ? ._.
9. Who is the most hyper person in class ?- almost th whole class is enthu for godsake .
10. Who makes you laugh a lot ?- erm.everyone makes me laughs.thanks to all (:

finally finished.i am tired toos.i found out you asked many stupid questions ._. gosh .
hope tomorrow can play basketball bahs.

老婆晚安

2009-04-27T07:28:00.001-07:00

life goes on and on and on ..... i'm happy to be myself .i'm going to meet everyday with a happy note.

2009-04-27T04:03:00.000-07:00

heys (: today was a fun-filled day for me again ! morning had assembly . chit-chatting with winyew,arhjun,benjamin and kevin.hahas.too free (: den hmm chemistry.what file check.din't even file a thing.teacher too bossy.PE.lols.played with sec4.seriously.they don't even impress me with their ball skills at all ._. its like so medicore really ._. except some are only ok.i think even jianqi is more pro.plus he is quite good with balls :D so PE a sec4 pushed me dunno for what and ok my stupid old injury kneecap bleed like red mountain again.thanks seiyi and shurong for helping me to put gauze.actually i can do it myself,ps (: but still thanks larhs.recess was talking about EPL with atticus,boonjian,chunyong and iskandar.quite fun to talk about.maths was...average today.just felt a little weardown.but i cant allow myself not to do anything.i just stop everything i'm doing and just do my maths.well english i was sent out to do my compo and teacher said i written too long.then chinese.today is de most slack periods of chinese because my chinese compo gets 33/50 :D so can sit down there talk with weihan,zhiwei,kianwee,alan they all.uhs.quite funny talking about jerry's hair.after school ate lunch in school and...yerhs stayed back to wait for boonjian but found out he pon his history class.so i went to th field to play soccer.i can't afford to sit there alone and do nothing.i ran to th field and just run like an idiot all around.tiring but..its better than doing nothing :D scored 2 goals.hahas.dhen after that went home with boonjian and here i'm ! (: guess i may go arcade later :D uhs.dinner time.

我很害怕，非常害怕。我很害怕我又会湖斯乱想。我不想再过那种伤心的日子，我非常想念她，可是我真的不要在想很多了。我真心只想她快乐。如果我没跟她在一起，我知道自己会非常伤心可是我也知道她比较和他朋友在一起。我一个人伤心就好。我不要在感受到那种不纯在的感觉。那种感觉实在很痛苦，所以我要快乐，而不要在湖斯乱想。我真心，爱着她

2009-04-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

never felt so happy before in arcade.(: keep laughing and laughing and have a hell of a time playing with everyone.mastered half of NOEL today.BLAZBLUE's kinda wonderful.(: jianwee keep saying th characters cheap.well cos he lost mahs.too bad (: he taught me to say that.and dunken was like dam irrating playing a fool today ._. holy.uncle was especially happy today toos.well i know whye cos a rainbow must have came out to bless our heart :D alex,weiliang,boonjian and tszping came arcade today too,not forgetting alvin [: and quite afew of streetfighter and tekken guys.made friends with all of them.got a kind of .. family feeling.very warm...really warm.th warmth i felt is really ... indescrible.really.just make me so happy being with them.and th boonjian suddenly improved so much in soccer ._. got pwned by him.dong* but well still fun playing with him.ohyeah i promised prassana to subb my song in my imeem. :D well well . hahas.

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑 th toothbrush i'm holding makes me laugh like a silly fool
嘲笑我永远用不掉 its laughing at me
想睡就睡想闹就闹 when i feel like sleeping,i sleep,when i feel like being noisy
i just be noisy
好快乐少了人唠叨 its very happy as no one nags at me
蓝色的碗盘多买了一套 i bought another extra blue plate
我忘了没人陪我通宵 but suddenly remember tht there's no one to share it with me
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑 there's alot of substitution being with me for me to smile
才会让我能真的忘了你的好 but that's almost enough for me to forget you
我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳 i joked around heartily
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好 claiming to everyone that being alone is such a wonderful
thing
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉 when everyone left me,i suddeny feel like dieing
我受不了 i really cannot take it
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬i am still joking but i'm actually afraid of going home and
how to spend th-night
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇 all these years i am used of having you around
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道 i think i can still continue on with life but please let
me
你好不好 know at least whether are you fine.

我们的小狗食量变好小 th dog we have , suddenly have little appetite
眼神里常常显得无聊 eyes are always filled with boredom now
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚 the bed th dog used to sleep on have a pair of leg lessed
所以他常常看着门口睡不着 that's why it always look outside th dog , not able to sleep
我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳 i am still joking heartily
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好 cry and laughing saying how nice it is to be alone
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉 when everyone left , i suddenly felt i can just die
我受不了 i cant take it
我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉 i am joking around but at th end th tears keep dropping
你的离开失去多少我计算不了 i cant count how much you leaving me means
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳 being busy for a whole day suddenly feel why am i being
so hardworking
对谁炫耀 who can i complain to
还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效 i am still joking , hoping joking can numb my feelings
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调 passing th night with singing many songs but still cant
run away from my feelings
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到 i sang th whole night , just hoping that someone will
mention
你好不好 whether you are fine or not

well thats all about th-subs.hope i can really be busier nowadays like maybe fill my days with activities.

i really want to keep myself busy so i won't think about anything anymore.i don't want to be a useless guy . i want to show to everyone i am not just a soft and useless guy i used to be.

2009-04-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

hmm since its now raining guess that i can't go out ! ): well i was hoping th rain would stop now ): well i went for a walk this morning and i found out that even breathing fresh air can be such a exhilarating experience . thanks dess . i owed big time to you . (:

2009-04-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

hey to all my squad members,i'm back to npcc,full heartedly this time (: promise you guys i will do my best to keep th gold in npcc.sorry zhengxiong for playing all th time.promise i'll be serious in everything i do now.sorry ruixia for always bullying you.promise i'll be serious lerhs.heys partner , i'm back to pair up with you (: uhhs ains and syariff , your trouble-maker is gone but a trusty old mate is back (: to kevin,choonlong,sekeng and boonjian,i found out its still not late to go back to be committed to npcc as well i have th full set badges still and surgeon (: what makes me decided to be serious?well.i woke up (:

2009-04-24T03:37:00.000-07:00

在感情上，最伤心的不是她和你分手而是当你眼睁睁的看他走过你像莫生人一样的走过。

在感情上，最伤心的不是看到你的伴陪着别人而是当他在那时候已经把你当成是理所当然了。

痛苦的不是她没陪在身边而是你看这他默默地和别人离开。

男人就好像傀儡一样，

每次都在被女人控制，

世界上他们说没有东西是公平的，

男人做守护天使会累，

可是他们的付出永远都不会被看见，

只能默默守护着他们自己心爱的女人，

慢慢，慢慢，慢慢的在快乐当中把天使给忘了，

一个人自己去找“幸福”这个地方了，

可是虽然每天都依然守护着他的天使也没带走，

一个人，慢慢地走进了别人的心了，

天使非常伤心，

可是他设么也没说的渐渐离开了，

女孩累了，

想找一个人来依靠，

这是才想起了一直往往都在他旁边的男孩，

可惜男孩已经不能再忍受他心里的悲伤和痛苦了。

2009-04-23T09:13:00.001-07:00

imagine th sky one day drop on th ground . cool (:

2009-04-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

i cant believe my gastrics came back again after so long ._. today was like hell.especially during lessons.i have never experiencing something so bored to th core.worst of all is th double period POA.i was there counting sheeps.kevin was also going to die.th whole class except winyew is beginning to see stars everywhere.maybe even th teacher is seeing stars.it was hell-like and there was not even breaks.headache.after POA...biology.i can't believe bad things come as a whole.Biology was also very boring.i was hitting my head on th table when everyone was almost falling asleep.ohgod save me from th boredom.BUT SUDDENLY!I SAW A COW FLY PASSED.OHGOSH.i was suddenly so energetic!i saw a cow chasing a pig!BUT no one believed me except my wife..): ohwell.so i decided to spam kianwee.what i say was.PER word/letter per sms.LETS.HAVE.SOME.FUN.COUNTING.NUMBERS.1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.13.14.15.16.17.18.19.20 WOW.YOU.ARE.GREAT.NOW.LETS.TRY.ALPHABETS.A.B......Z.AMAZING.YOU.DID.GREAT.NOW.LETS.TRY.SPELLING.YOUR.NAME.KIAN.WEE.K.I.A.N.W.E.E GOOD.I.AM.SO.HAPPY.then he was there sulking and nagging at me not to spam him.sorry [: but was so fun.so started to spam almost everyone [: i told anthony i saw a cow flying pass and he was laughing so hard.i told chunyong i saw a cow he was almost going to beat me up.i told royce i saw a cow flying pass and he gave a COLD LAUGHTER ._. i told kevin i saw a cow flying pass he almost died of laughter.i told winyew i saw a cow flying and he was almost out of control.i told jelyn i saw a cow flying pass and she was laughing to.i told huiwen and junwen and they tried believing me but i don't think they really believed me.only my wife say ；好啦，我相信你 . YAY [: finally someone believe i saw a cow! yipee [: well went to do th NE quiz after school and huiwen was de top in th class..from th btm [: she was so funny :D wellwell.talked with junwen and huiwen till 6.15 and left school with joey and junzhi.well.was half asleep and feeling not right.ecentric i guess for today.wanted to play basketball but..ohwell.gastrics ]: tomorrow shall be th most boring day of all.HEALTHY LIFESTYLE-run happily,CHEMISTRY-go in class,tired from running and listen to her boring rantings,POA-oh cow save me please,BIOLOGY-NOT AGAIN )):,MATHS-save me from this brain attacks.FINALLY.tomorrow playing basketball!!! [: yays :D and yesterday someone said something to me.i hope you consider what you said.i'm serious.

2009-04-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

just found out i forgotten totally about my dental appointment.nvm.wait for her to chase me bahs.[: today's quite ok.actually everyday is,but today is just alittle exceptionally happier for me [: lessons went on and i went for basketball.quite boring since very little people.and zhenshen went MIA toos.well,well.went home and actually want to go to arcade but got sick looking at th-machine so i decided not to go.nvm my semi-finals also drawing near lerhs.boonjian keep pouring cold water and headlocking me.aren't he dumb? (: arghs ...
既然你们的事情都到了这种地步为何不考录想想你们的所做所为呢？你有没有考录过要或很想逃避这世界呢？

这世界总是那么令人心酸。这是一个不能逃避的事实。做出个决定总是一个不能十全十美的东西。可是如果

不那么做事情就永远不会被解决了。你们都是我非常好的兄弟或姐妹。我知道你们行的。加油。

i know i can do it toos (: lets go {:

2009-04-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

today was quite a day.morning we had our seating arrangements changed.but i still sitting beside kevin...with a fan i'm under this time (: POA lesson was so horrible and so boring.i thk i will fail my POA in MYE ): maths was fun like usual :D did 7.1 and 7.2 .i think maths is th only lesson tht th class will really quiet down and do work and ask anything they dunno.uhs nice feeling.recess i was dam angry and chunyong wanted to bash th girl up tomorrow becos th girl is really very guailan.i almost punched her today.something just seemed to hold on to my hand.well.warm feeling but my heart burning at then.History lesson was boring and Biology was worst.after school,i stayed in school and do my homework.dhen went home and found out my mum dint cook ! ._. so i went to my friend's house to cook for myself :D went back home tired.was actually feeling blue today but...not anymore (:

我会珍惜你的，

我再也不在乎我自己了，

应为我已经懂你还有我的心。

我好希望这种感觉可以永远不要消失，

好让我能睡个非常好的晚觉。

2009-04-20T07:20:00.000-07:00

today was filled with homeworks.well,i ran away from all as usual.today assembly was so freaking bored -.- i have never seen such a boring presentation before.chemistry!TITRATION FOR TH 3RD TIME -.-" 3 wks in a row all titrations.so decided to squeeze soap into it.and well.th solution P was used up so as th smart alek i did something fun again.i put tap water into th bottle ;D ahs i'm so smart (: den th results nid to be transparent liquid so i did something smart again!i open th tap water and let it stay in my tube ;D i have never seen a smarter guy than me (: results arhs.copy from others lorhs ;D PE was so fun.we was running 2.4km.i walked my 1st round and surprisely,i said byebye to yiting who was still behind me although she was running.wow.paced zoey th whole way but she failed 20 secs.sorry zoey ): well recess...lets skip it.dhen we went to maths lessons and mr wee was frusfrated tht none of us knew th simple answer.well i can see no one really bothers.during english we watched mulan.yerhs.mulan is in my dreams.i was sleeping like a pig in a sty at then.sorry mulan ): chinese.man -.- we need to do si han.eh come on la mr du -.- whye we every week need to do 1 compo siah + zhouji.NO.this wk is 2 compo.hell siah.will get bored and feel like crushing th paper one lehs.den after everything sit in th canteen,talked with vanessa and went to play basketball :D well.fun fun fun :D uhhs tired and laid down on my bed flat {:
我发现了我和篮球的时间已经超过了我和她的时间，
也许是她所说的他很累或忙吧。
反正我也无意中成为了一个隐形的人了，
可是我一点也不伤心，
应为我知道到头来大家都在等着我，
而说实在的，
我也真真在她生命中扮演了一个路过人而已。

2009-04-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

today was my sister's 18th birthday.its was quite ok larhs cos i get to eat dinner before 5.20 [: uhhs then my dad bought alot of food cost about 100+.lols.after eating went back to arcade to play BLAZBLUE.hahas.at 10pm go to ping house and now 11+ i blogging lorhs.hahas [: ahhs tmr school day.sure sian.now eating my sis's cake.hahas.hope tomorrw kevin they all will play basketball [: well ...
wonder how are the girls?
without them together my life in npcc will be futile ):
i will no longer be a happy man ):
so my dear girls please reconcile
so that we can happily go as one to national heritage (:
rites?
i am looking forward to th trip [:

2009-04-18T09:22:00.000-07:00

basically spend my whole day in arcade today.uncle sms me say got new video game so i go and .... i got hooked again ._. its call BLAZBLUE and it is really very cool.really.kinda like it cos guess tht i got bored with kof although th competition is on.well guess going arcade tomorrow too.ohwell.my A maths worksheet..ayahs.no matter how i do my homework everyone will also doubt me.well,as well i go hone my skills in arcade rather getting doubt.i'm tired of it.

2009-04-17T06:39:00.000-07:00

ahs.guess i post first bahs before going to slp.today was an overall wonderful day.th sun was shining brightly in th sky blahblahblah.th healthy lifestyle was retarded.th lessons are so freaking boring }: npcc was ... tiring.i was so angry during npcc.i also dun know what happened to me.uhhs i got all th badges already (: chiaos [:

prassana you are my dear partner for life
ain you are my dear brother for life
priya you are my good friend for life
so what brought you guys to this misunderstandings?
you girls thought that your friendship was strong
but it aren't
you girls ran away from it
so as your brother
i decided to bring you girls back all over again
since we have eaten so many hardships together as a whole
i will really wish for you girls to be together again
do it for me , can ?

prassana is already so sad and ain is so angry . gosh . my beautiful ladies don't get angry over misundertanding . lets get it over with , k ? (: in a happy-mood like mine.well.i aren't really that cheerful nowadays as well , sorry ]:

2009-04-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

wow i kinda love nowadays except for biology or chemistry lessons.uhhs having fun everyday.ohyeah i just saw th youtube video melrose asked me to see and they say th world is ending in 2012!but...ehhs i haven do many things i wish to do lehs!and i'm 18... finally 18 and dey kill my dreams?! ]: so i decided to do things now so i won't regret!hmm HMM H.M.M uhhs! i thought of it !i want to !got quite abit but one is to .... haiz.dun say lerhs!another one is i want to be able to form a team with kevin,choonlong,chunyong and boonjian!dey all say ok liao leh i thk i haven ask choonlong before but he sure say yes de larhs [: another one is to...at least serve army for 1 yr :X dadadas ~ basketball skills improve....stamina increase 3.2km can run in less than 13 mins...and....snore* }:

i say lerhs will have lower chance of happening...cos thats th most important to me.{: tatas

2009-04-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

ahhs my eyes are falling apart.tired lerhs.play very long in arcade today.quite a number of losses.actually quite alot.wasted $8 ._. haiz.duwan say about anything tht happen these days so...[: hope i can be happy tmr!

我希望能不要在输给我自己的例外以免。我要坚强，不能再像一个不敢面对现实的人，可是谁给我勇气？

2009-04-09T20:58:00.000-07:00

hmm.wake up with low spirits.i also dunno whye lehs.hahas.maybe mood swing?just suddenly all th-past i have passed..everything just passed my mind like as if i'm brainwashed with my fearful past.i tried my bst to be strong and stand strong but i'm not able to withstand tht long.th-pain i had keep coming,even my brain is trying its besst to keep it away from me.th frightful past keeps haunting me like as if i will never be able to run away from it.th pain just keep coming and coming.i really cant keep it much longer.i'm going to surrender to my pain.or maybe i should be numb towards it.listen to th song.listen to th lyrics.ca click th miscellanous for th lyrics.listen hard.i can feel my pain there.....let me submit to it.

这么久以来我到地着么会那么害怕那感觉，我尽力了。真的。

2009-04-08T05:51:00.001-07:00

hello everyone [: just came back from npcc (: soooo tired...my right leg burn-ed again...man...): uhhs so school was so-so today again.hahas.lessons were boring as usual.did my chinese compo during silent reading and maths.phews [: my maths really cant make it lerhs larhs.i all dunno siah.haiz.den english was paying attention,but half-sleeping.recess!saw th guy xuehui likes.look gay to me.xD haiz and his girlfriend was sulking.well...that was just a small matter.present only.hahas [: then chem lent chem book from bendann [: uhhs help me pass a hurdle (: den chinese.well it's th presentation and it was sekeng,alan,bilian and jarold that presents.all give high marks.sekeng highest.hahas [: den straight after school rush to npcc and change to full-uniform lerhs...haiz.i guess i need to start scolding or they all stepping over my head lerh larhs! }: i can learn to be fierce too.hahas.den celebrate jingwen's birthday {: went to macs at 7.30 for dinner with xinyi,joeyang,boonjian,ruixia,kiachiyi,syarif and CHINSENG sir.he says tmr marshal i can give out my namecard to pretty girls if i want to show i'm man ._. thats dumb anyway.but...hahas no thanks [: chat-chat-chat and went home with boonjian on 962.ohhs and here i'm [: half-dead.tomorrow still need be marshal lehs.good good can leave class at 1 pm [: wakakaka.ESCAPE [: really tired -.- sec3 life is so different,both in cca and academically.

baby,tomorrow dun run for mass run kkaes?i'm really worried about you...}: you are so important to me lehhs..hahas {:

2009-04-07T06:03:00.001-07:00

hahas today is a happy day [: lessons were boring everyday but at least i put in th effort to listen to mr wee's lessons [: uhhs recess was boring cos i dint get a chance to see her as she has syf.man ._. worst recess....den double humanties was damn funny.we have 45 mins of boring lesson and went to th com lab.jonathan,munho and jingkai copied mrs seng pic and enlarge and put it beside a orang utan's picture.damn funny.almost no difference.[: den bio hmm went practical with seiyi,shurong and annie.well,annie seems abit different.hahs [: after tht its napfa.i first time for standing broad jump like flying lehhs [: 22x cm.hahas.[: but i hurt my leg very badly hmm...like redhill located in my right leg.bleeding badly [: lucky got yishen to help me cleanse my wound {: and zhenshen spammed antisetic on my wound ._. well thanks too.[: den hmm although my injnury i still go do all stations.i am so determined to get gold at tht time cos...next year nid do pull-ups lerhs.sure cant gold de.so i go for this year.i did 5x inclines in 1 min but well...something bad happened [: ahhs my fault my fault [: den sit and reach i easily got a 40 without stretching but my leg straight away muscle cramp ]: den situp i got stomach cramp oo.bad day lehhs.so suey de ]: den my first try for shuttle run 11++ s i was like dam angry.wth cant be my leg injured i wil deproved 2s wad!so i go for second time.my leg at tht time bleeding quite bad lerhs.alot of blood.can feel my bone but ... still got 10.2s..well quite good for a limb guy [: i guess...so after tht went for basketball with joey,sekeng,chunyong,vanessa,kianwee,zhenshen,anthony,and th hui-jun twins.lols.[: quite badly injured at tht time but still played on.uhhs hahas.now my leg quite bad lerhs.oo.blood keep coming out i using gauze to stop it.wonder tmr npcc how but..i guess its worth for my gold for napfa this year.so overall i am still so happy![:

baby,its ok to get silver.i'm happy for you.its just a bonus on whether what you get.in th end,th real thing you will get for this whole event is th experience and th hardwork you have put in for your syf competition.i'm so proud to have a dear like you {:

2009-04-06T22:09:00.000-07:00

now in th middle of history lessons [: my laopo goes for syf..well dint want to sms her...scared she performing and i sms her [: hahas.well.she can do it de larhs.hahas.

2009-04-06T04:52:00.001-07:00

today was a fun day.excluding th part tht mr du called my mum ._. aiyahs he also not unreasonable my mum also not hahas [: after school went basketball-ing with kevin,chunyong,choonlong,boonjian.kianwee,woonkian,sekeng and royce.royce was th looker ._. well my ball skills improved quite abit if this continues on i thk maybe i can help my class for basketball on th re-sports carnival.thats my aim [: geez.i believe i can do it (: and...tmr baby go for syf lerhs.i know she can get gold with honour for th band de larhs.she says no i kill her [: ahhs.iloveher (:

2009-04-05T06:56:00.000-07:00

somehow life isn't right.it isn't right really.i really well,miss her alot ]: today is competition final.well something went wrong but still.i and darrly won.thks alot bro.u did so much for me these 2 days.and what was i doing?nothing but losing matches after matches.without u making me realise i'm still of some use yerhs..i promise you i will do my best for th final against serangoon,k? (:

i really love you lots.may time guide me back to th right path...[:

2009-04-04T08:30:00.001-07:00

hmm everyone.today is an average day...morning wake up with gastrics again..den went for tution...den..went to arcade...boonjian peii me whole day..darrly,weikiat was also there with me too...sorry darrly..i dint mean it.i really cant control my emotions.spare me afew days?well,i got back to th world league at least rite?i will...try my best...i will.

miss you lots.

2009-04-03T04:18:00.000-07:00

today was th best day of this year to me.we had 2.4km run this morning as its healthy lifestyle.ran with huiwen and junwen.thks [: den hmm chem lesson we have tests...still quite ok.will buck up in studies.hahas.den poa ahhs sian my group only get 100 points ._. cos we bet too high.LOLL.th winner is winyew group.obvious.he poa expert lehs.then my bio tchr no come so did th work like usual?th ten year series.hahas.then its recesss.best recess.[: i go play soccer with every other guys from other class.dam fun.qihua ppl also flying their pet rocket.we running around field th pet rocket will fall anywhere hahas.dam cute.then martin every kick will also over.[: must be thinking of stephanie arhs mart? [: uhhs den jonathan scores 2 goals.usual and renjie scores one.hahs end is 3-1 hahas.fun.den went going back class saw vanessa.hahas.walk up with her.maths lessons.i got pay attention and do my work.chernchow good teacher lehs [: he teach me.hahas.then npcc.i was tired already by then cos i run 2.4km still play soccer.den i need to wear my full-uniform to take th squad with boonjian for th annual parade ppl.dey were really cute sec2 larhs[: all my babies lehs.hahas.was teasing hazirah whole way cos she keeps looking all around.jonathan was also disiaoing me ._. joke with them quite long till i and boonjian decided to be serious.well they never did get serious.farah's hips was injured but she endured through th training.[: brave girl.hahas.then dismissal parade that time i can feel i going faint liaos.no water + cant sit down must stand for like 4 hrs under dam hot sun?hahas.but i still can larhs.wanted to play basketball but it was taken by th basketball girls so haiz.hahas.[: ohyahs.boonjian challenged me to a all-rounder arcade spar.hahas.12 different games.hahas.come lorhs [: arcade my homeground lehs.hahas.[: haiz.i promoted dunno how long ago lerhs still nid wear my lance coporal walk around.hahas.screwed kevin th whole day.nigel screwed him up too.choonlong and sekeng was slacking.uhhs.[: xinyi was busy running about like baka.cute(: hahas.den jingwen as usual scolding me again.haiz.let things go [: rahayu looked stressed.kuokwei owed th squad 50 pumping as he thks his tent is btr den sec2 but it is worse.hahas.go my babies [: i beginning to love npcc back lerhs.my passion back lerhs [:

THANKS TO:

Joey:everyday also accompany me and hahas cheer me ups and talk me around.love u la twin [: ohya! every morning also ride me to school.you rox lahs [:
Junzhi:cheer me up too [: wakaka good bros forever [:
huiwen:cheer me up and xinku ni lerhs [: nid peii me run today for 2.4km [: dragged u down with me ;D
junwen:thks to you too.i know you tried ur best to talk me around but hahas [; xinku ni lerhs.
vannessa:i know you want me to find th old-me back but..hahas.its impossible lerhs [:
darrly:peii me everyday go arcade give me a good fight [: my bro indeed.
nigel:bother to cheer me up and hahas i love you too larhs bro [:
zhenshen:hahas u yourself bothered also come to me and play basketball with me [:
chunyong:counsel me uhhs?hahas.i great counsellor lerhs.i great with life lahs [: love you larhs bro (:
xiangxun:uhhs th old me is not coming back.but rest assured our brothership will never be affected.geez. (:
ain:lend me a shoulder to lean on [:
choonlong:always trust me and share your problems with me [: love you bro (:
jelyn:always teach me how to do things and cheer me up [: brother (:
chernchow:i so emo u still able to teach me maths [: xinku ni lerhs (:
yainyi:always lend me your things [: i sad u also still lend me ur stuffs and put up with me [: hahas.

yupps thts all.[: love all of them.hahas.(:

if i never trusted you,i would not have love you that deep.

2009-04-02T04:35:00.001-07:00

haiz.since you rather be with your frens den me i find no reason to stop u from going with your friends.maybe ur love for me isn't real love like you think bahs.hahas.i will respect your decisions bahs...i really really...dam sad...that i'm this not important to you.really.but i guess u gave up on me lerhs.

2009-04-01T03:15:00.000-07:00

today is both fun and sad day for me.although it's boring in class but at least i have yainyi,christine and kevin with me and th other classmates like jelyn and richard den class not bored liaos.still got martin and samuel [: uhhs.chemistry first tie ytd do homework and tchr says she cant find..haiz.i not fated to do homework i guess.after school,go to th npcc room for meeting and practised on what to do on stage.[: after tht,i went to play basketball with benjamin 3/7,boonjian,kevin,chunyong,sekeng,nigel and zhenshen.play 2 proper matches and lost both as zhenshen keep at th last minute score 3-point throw to end th both games.hahas.many of us get injured like usual.uhhs.sure its fun [: how i wish everyday can play with everyone but well,we are all equally busy.[:

well..i'm sad cos ... personal reason ]: but its ok.i really hope and believe.uhhs.

i guess i'm realy not important in her life at all.without me,her life still can go on [: so,suan lerhs.i'm going play basketball everyday toos.i thk thts btr i guess.i dun want to thk about it anymore or be affected by it.

2009-03-30T03:44:00.000-07:00

today,is another day of experience for me.morning,wake up found i'm almost late for joey's car so i can sit her car go school and phew.manage to did it [: went to school and soon after assembly got th cd through th arts.its 3/1,my class and 3/7 performance.all was funny.haiz.hahas.then its chem lesson.i was badly knock-outed.too bored.den its p.e and we need to run 2.4km.i got 12:12 mins as my timing.i deproved ._. haiz.so recess went on and its maths.maths we did an exam and i got 3/10 ._. haiz.den english i pay attention cause i kinda like english nowadays..chinese was very funn for me [: then...i stayed back after school.i counselled nigel and vanessa and off i went home,with lots of feelings and thoughts.went home with chunyong.both of us are troubled with almost similar problems.

要等不可以
不要等是错
i can only try my best.ღ
i must be strong for her.

2009-03-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

Today was relatively a normal day.i had all my lessons as bored as usual.i was a marshal during th healthy lifestyle..but dunno whye during morning i so yearn to see her face rather th hundreds who passed me.its rather wierd [: during npcc,i got say i got long hair again ._. i already got no hair still long hair ]: took th sec2 squad today toos.hahas [:

Had a dream ytd again.its a replica from th past.i dreamt of trekking a forest with kevin,choonlong,chunyong,sekeng,kianwee,syarif,boonjian and nigel.it is very dark in th forest..really dark.i really can feel th atmosphere.suddenly i turned behind and found kianwee missing.so we decided to split up.suddeny i walk halfway through th darkness i heard kianwee's scream and i rush to tht direction and found i was blocked..i was worried for kianwee and when i went back to th meeting point,i found out everyone was missing.th forest is so dark and silent.i was wondering what i will do..i wonder how did i even get into this mess of losing everyone.suddenly i saw a hut in front of me.i went into th hut.there was completely no lights at all.suddenly i can see blurry images of what's in front me.i kicked and pushed th door but th door dint even budge.i was very scared already.den i suddenly saw bendann in front of me.still rmbr i say:why are you here?are u ok?its not safe here.she just look at me and laughed.i feel wierd..i also dunno whye.suddenly she turned into a pile of skeleton and was trying to kill me.waa what i was so dam scared hahas what a stupid dream dhen until th door on th verge of death i really become so emotional tht i ran to th skeleton and hug it and say:i love you.i really do.no matter what you are,or you want my life,i am willing to commit my life to you and love you.i was crying den and i woke up.i suddenly got th damn xin suan feeling.really.its just so...hardpain..hahas.

Being a bad guy is impossible for me.No matter how hard i try to turn th road i start from,its impossible i know to turn back.i wonder sometimes whye i just cant,cant be a badguy and treat ppl badly.no matter how angry i'm,just a word from her and i'm so...happy ._. man.what got into my mind.ahhs i noe [: th love of my wife caused me to change {: of course i will wait for her.dun say for just 2 wks,even 1 year,10 years or 100 years.i will love you and wait for you forever.x3

2009-03-26T04:16:00.000-07:00

today was a not-so-normal day.[: hahs.been through all th boring lessons as usual.make me tired.really tired(:

i be good guy until tired lerhs.let me be a bad guy k?i'm really tired.i dunno whye i'm so tired.i have been help to counselling ppl but in my situation i got stuck in th maze of my heart.i really duwan say much.i promised,i will wait for you.iloveyou.

2009-03-25T07:21:00.001-07:00

ahhs i currently very free now...but baby has lots of homework to do...haiz wanted to call her but its ok ! i will entertain myself [: this morning i woke up at 7..and suddenly rmbr i will meet joey's dad car at 7:05 opposite canberra primary.i ran and ran and phew i was there before time[: saw liang and amelia and ohwell in i got into th car and slept till we reached riverside sec.suddenly rmbr there is morning [PT] and ahhs it dosen't matter whether i got go or not..only 1 set of 18 pumping,crunches,jumping jets,half-squats and run..as well dun go so i sit there with my uniform.then went up and yerhs slack till 7:40.den assembly , OMMS and went back class for silent reading.[:

Silent reading was sooo boring ._. i was talking with yainyi and martin they all and time flew to 8.45 wen we have maths but well,i guess mr wee's too sick to come so continue slacking till 9.30 when we have ms jasmine lim lesson to 11.gosh i tell you how boring her lessons arhs.i was totally knocked-out.i slept from 9:30 to 11 and recess! i love recess th most cos i can finally be together with baby [: so well yrhs peii baby buy her food and was still half-sleeping [: uhhs recess so fast over and i have chem lessons.too boring till i slept again.i was fully-dead then till chinese whr we have change of classes...and i can see baby again![: i was fully awaken again!! [:

Today chinese lesson we have ms fu sitting at th back of classroom.ohgod.she sit there behind me how i use handphone ]: so ....i was listening to lesson and soon th lesson is over.mr du is also taking th video of th lesson too.felt watched cause th camera just behind me [: den i nid to stay back for chinese file..wanted to wait for baby but guess she has her reasons [: hahas.so i sat outside and get tortured. ]: so miss her at tht period but well she has band (: so i continue doing with antony.teacher call antony copy th model copy and he got fed-up and left and told me to tell tchr his home number.luckily xinyu wrote his home number on th table so th teacher can see as reference.[: bleh and so th teacher comes out and call him i guess while i am still suffering.lukily got yansheng,woonkian,zhenshen,xinyu and weijie with me to peii me pass my lonely times (: thks guys [: soon it started raining heavily and i was worried whether baby got umbrella or not but well...guess she is busy hahas.(: so i finally completed my file and was let off at th end.half-dead at tht time.ohwell.i went into hall and play badminton with RSS recreational team awhile before going down to th canteen.

Went to th canteen and saw serene,kiachiyi and syariff.well went over there,bought food and eat my lunch at late afternoon there.[: then here comes peiyi and as usual,she showed me her lady-attitude again.ahs.then got reprimanded from kiachiyi saying i shouldnt treat girl like tht.mindyou.stop acting like you know everything.you don't even know th way we communicate so stop being bossy.i dun give a hell-care whether you are a main-committee member or not.it does not affect me abit.so i went over to huiwen,junwen and vanessa who are obviously better ppl.have a long chat with them and junzhi,peixin and joey walked pass with th potato wedges.wanted one from them and junzhi is holding 2 sticks.he say he cant give me cos th potato wedges too soft,cant peirce.i was like 'diao' and when peixin comes,junzhi gave a stick to peixin and they were dere happy eating.man ._. then i want go lerh den dey give me but nahhs [: joking with you guys only.hahas (:

counselled my sisters xiaohui and xiaojunn and boy..didn't meant to pressure both of you [: i know you can do it de..so u girls need to take care of yourselves (: talked with sekeng,zhenshen and the 'fei[s]' at th busstop while waiting for th bus and yerhs.saw mingfang and th whole band gang.and ariel flung her bottle with water on sekeng which makes him wet.hahas (: and went home on 962 and ate dinner already [:

well well,does it pays to be a good guy even?i wonder what i'm doing nowadays too.puzzled.being a free counsellor is both fun and tiring.i must think of feelings from both sides and hahas.well i must admit i must have been good in counselling ppl [: may consider being a counsellor as my occupation when i grow up.ahhs baby is still doing her homeworks..darn i hate th teachers }: nvr give her time to rest...rest well bendann,because i will be there for you when you nid me and..takecare of your body!{: you have become th-most important part in my life.thanks for your understanding currently [: iloveyou,forever and lots♥ {:

2009-03-24T07:05:00.000-07:00

uhhs today's tuesday and its th tournament day.have boring lessons during school time and after school went to play basketball with everyone [: hahas.just got home and i recieve sms from my old mate saying i got competition matches today.luckily he knows i'm forgetful person, hehs thks bro [: so went all th way to bishan..and..ahhs.I MET ALL MY OLD FRIENDS ! [: so happy so long never have a proper match with them lerhs! [: ohno you din't know how ecstatic i'm just now there,throw my own face but its ok [: they all improved so much lerhs..hahas..rite ben?[: i know you 100% on com read my post de..[: but pity (: i won all my matches.hahas.[: i wonder ... if i would meet her again...hahas...

2009-03-23T07:59:00.001-07:00

This post is specially to address to people who thinks i'm too close to huiwen.xiaohui is my sister and i love shiying lots and lots more [: please do not ask anything more about this issue.thanks(: i'm so happy tht i have a understanding wife {: loveyou,baby (:

2009-03-21T19:57:00.000-07:00

finally woke up [; th camp was kinda fun as i was a cadet leader now and no longer a cadet.but being a cadet leader was also bad in a way as every hour it seems as if we are scolded for at least once.well,many things have changed in my house after a short two days.i found hamsters in my house and it is so disgusting.well,they aren't my type._. so my mother begin to give away hamsters for free till now there is only one.its still disgusting to me._. ahhs.my group sec 1 was soooooo rowdy.i felt like i'm dealing with myself when i was in sec1.so i begin to be fierce.act only.but well,they thought i'm.and i got such a lovely partner,prassana,with me,how can i not be able to manage my group well?anyway,my group won the most points group award.hahas.and wad i and prassana get,nothing._. but its ok.looking at their smiles is enough for us{: and we have a captain ball match.me,boonjian,choonlong,kevin,ain,faiqah,zhenxiong,nigel and more in one team and sekeng,zhenbagam,sally,keanhou,jingkai,govin,chinseng sir and more in th other group.th sec1 sec 2 all thought we will win as you see my group got kevin boonjian choonlong me nigel and zhengxiong leh.all th best players in sec3 squad all not strong enough to score even one goal.sekeng and kean hou on th other side keep trying their best to score but choonlong jump too high dey cant even score.so no worries.kevin nigel zhengxiong and me all keep passing to boonjian as he nearest to th "captain" and well , th chinseng sir block i thk more den 20+ balls away.and somemore we playing full court he can still "thunder" th to th other side of th court.in th end its a draw with 0-0 cause its imposible to score at all and everyone is so tired already.ahaha my darling partner prassana from my opposite group de keep failing to get th ball.hahas also xinyi and i have a bond still!haha!we played 1-2-1-2 quite well haha {: all these memories as a cadet leader i will keep deep inside me i promise to everyone {: the night is always unbearable,seriously as its th night when i thk about th things i missed most.

2009-03-19T07:55:00.000-07:00

today i went to play basketball with others {: ahhs ahhs fun day...den at night i went to th arcade to wait for weiliang...hmm weiliang and amelia ehhs?(: hahas i will escuse myself next time,sorry {: then went ping house at 10pm to have my dinner.uhhs...i am going pack my bag now...my bag for my camp tmr...i..dun feel like going to it..but i know i got responsibilities...but...something is holding back.i know its only 2 days but...seriously...i really.....hmm.hahas D: stupid np.. }:

ahahs!i realised something when i saw amelia and weiliang hitting each other in th-arcade.hahas.i found happiness is really smth simple.th smiles on their face are so big.hahas.i envy de lehhs...}: geez.uhhs thts not th point!i went off-tracked again :D happiness based..hmm..i really hope to see her smile..if rather i would have pass all i have passed to make her smile again i would.i am thinking how foolish thking is winning something important will rather what i really win for.is there something i can get in winning?something i can really learn.nahs.i would rather lose..but..its all for her.i just wanted to show everyone i am not a good-for-nothing and i will do my best in my games although ppl would say its waste of time.but it aren't.not computer games those but..my team that has passed lots with me these few years.well.they have been with me for every emotions i have ever crossed..but..ITS all because of that i wants to protect th things dear and important to me...really really emotional.hahas.a game tht helps me pass all my emotional stages and really i have so many friends there with me.having a tatoo or smoking dosent show a guy's badness definetly.so what.who dosen't have one's own dark side.even i have one.so what if i was once an bad-egg...it dosen't matter.i have to protect my team through th competition i promised...ahh well...i..want to protect her smile..forever.i want to keep her smile in my mind.forever too.maybe thts my reason for trying to protect everything dear to me.iloveher,forever..its true.{:

2009-03-18T21:51:00.001-07:00

i guess now everyone should be in kbox bahhs.hahas.my handphone now also no network coverage i also can't recieve call or sms or even sms or call others.maybe all will be well later bahs.well.guess cant help it but feel a little bit low.i don't know myself much either actually.hahas.but i will try.no,i must try.from a simple game to stress i wonder what i have actually been doing all this time.is winning really so important to me?hmm?actually i find it ironically why i feel so fked-up when some retards come and gl me and i got so angry till i lost almost every match.man..whats gone wrong with my emotions...all gone wrong and wild...somemore tmr is camp lerhs...can i even be happy before tmr ? }:

2009-03-17T09:49:00.001-07:00

hmm.yesterday i easily passed th qualifying rounds for th competition...and yerhs..i got confidence with my own hands{: today has been a long day toos...8am-11am listening to mr wee's lessons quite boring but its also hard on him too to teach a class who uses handphones,vandalising th tables and playing psp.lols!i am also a guilty convict which falls in cateogary one ;X my teacher is fine with it de !{: after tht lesson i went to causeway to gelare with vivian,christine,cherrie,wanqiao and vivian's good choir mate to eat lunch..th things there really costed a bomb so...welllllll...i dint want to eat it D: so vivian,wanqiao and cherrie made me suffer in silence while watching them eat th big big waffle with ice cream and de waffle has maple syrup on it oh my DD: nbm nxt time i can bring ahem* go eat also ma (: den at night i got th stupid training from 7-9 and i was dam hungry and i was only let off at 10...wen baby going slp lerhs...wanted to give her a suprise call but well...people sleeping lerhs so i nvr did it ]; its ok larhs!hahas!:X(let me zi wo an wei awhile ;x )so after th kfc i went to tsz ping's house to watch tv until 11.55pm den i see going 12 am den i decided t go home.wen going home,i told liang tht he will reach his lift and there will be smthing behind him.he scared tio so he walking th long way home.ahahas.actually i was scared myself ._. well,this kind of things cant hide de larhs ;x of cos will scared la!plus i just watch ghost movies ytd.kinda like those kinds of things nowadays.screw me D: not really have mmuch time for basketball nowadays too...but definetly alot time for her xD guess tmr zhanyu wants me to play with them cards well i agree to it but ... hmm..wonder if baby got go schoool or not?(: if she got go den maybe i can walk to school lehs (: ahhs.what am i thinking! .____. i gone nuts lerhs D: iloveher [:

2009-03-16T03:26:00.000-07:00

melemel ! uue wan die somemore is it ? xD
& lele wan have the same fate as melmel arhs ? xD
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faiqah : i relinkk one (:

2009-03-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

yo guys.been long since i posted.well,kinda busy training my kyo in arcade.sorry everyone.well kyo has become a part of my team and i need to practise it so ... hmm... guess it is kinda important to me.i changed my hp also.man...normally i change hp dam happy de but this time got such a LONG DrAGGY FEEEELING ~ hahas whye lehs is my secret (: i'm not telling de reason!(: tatas.tmr whole day taken by mr wee's maths file.hell for me...but heaven at de beginning when i see her (: x3

2009-03-12T06:29:00.000-07:00

replies to taqqies :D
faiqah , xiangqi , henry : relinkked (:
melrose : uue're dead tmr !
ariel : ...