today,is another day of experience for me.morning,wake up found i'm almost late for joey's car so i can sit her car go school and phew.manage to did it [: went to school and soon after assembly got th cd through th arts.its 3/1,my class and 3/7 performance.all was funny.haiz.hahas.then its chem lesson.i was badly knock-outed.too bored.den its p.e and we need to run 2.4km.i got 12:12 mins as my timing.i deproved ._. haiz.so recess went on and its maths.maths we did an exam and i got 3/10 ._. haiz.den english i pay attention cause i kinda like english nowadays..chinese was very funn for me [: then...i stayed back after school.i counselled nigel and vanessa and off i went home,with lots of feelings and thoughts.went home with chunyong.both of us are troubled with almost similar problems.




要等不可以
不要等是错
i can only try my best.ღ
i must be strong for her.

♥ 3:44 AM

Today was relatively a normal day.i had all my lessons as bored as usual.i was a marshal during th healthy lifestyle..but dunno whye during morning i so yearn to see her face rather th hundreds who passed me.its rather wierd [: during npcc,i got say i got long hair again ._. i already got no hair still long hair ]: took th sec2 squad today toos.hahas [:

Had a dream ytd again.its a replica from th past.i dreamt of trekking a forest with kevin,choonlong,chunyong,sekeng,kianwee,syarif,boonjian and nigel.it is very dark in th forest..really dark.i really can feel th atmosphere.suddenly i turned behind and found kianwee missing.so we decided to split up.suddeny i walk halfway through th darkness i heard kianwee's scream and i rush to tht direction and found i was blocked..i was worried for kianwee and when i went back to th meeting point,i found out everyone was missing.th forest is so dark and silent.i was wondering what i will do..i wonder how did i even get into this mess of losing everyone.suddenly i saw a hut in front of me.i went into th hut.there was completely no lights at all.suddenly i can see blurry images of what's in front me.i kicked and pushed th door but th door dint even budge.i was very scared already.den i suddenly saw bendann in front of me.still rmbr i say:why are you here?are u ok?its not safe here.she just look at me and laughed.i feel wierd..i also dunno whye.suddenly she turned into a pile of skeleton and was trying to kill me.waa what i was so dam scared hahas what a stupid dream dhen until th door on th verge of death i really become so emotional tht i ran to th skeleton and hug it and say:i love you.i really do.no matter what you are,or you want my life,i am willing to commit my life to you and love you.i was crying den and i woke up.i suddenly got th damn xin suan feeling.really.its just so...hardpain..hahas.

Being a bad guy is impossible for me.No matter how hard i try to turn th road i start from,its impossible i know to turn back.i wonder sometimes whye i just cant,cant be a badguy and treat ppl badly.no matter how angry i'm,just a word from her and i'm so...happy ._. man.what got into my mind.ahhs i noe [: th love of my wife caused me to change {: of course i will wait for her.dun say for just 2 wks,even 1 year,10 years or 100 years.i will love you and wait for you forever.x3

♥ 5:30 AM

today was a not-so-normal day.[: hahs.been through all th boring lessons as usual.make me tired.really tired(:

i be good guy until tired lerhs.let me be a bad guy k?i'm really tired.i dunno whye i'm so tired.i have been help to counselling ppl but in my situation i got stuck in th maze of my heart.i really duwan say much.i promised,i will wait for you.iloveyou.

♥ 4:16 AM

ahhs i currently very free now...but baby has lots of homework to do...haiz wanted to call her but its ok ! i will entertain myself [: this morning i woke up at 7..and suddenly rmbr i will meet joey's dad car at 7:05 opposite canberra primary.i ran and ran and phew i was there before time[: saw liang and amelia and ohwell in i got into th car and slept till we reached riverside sec.suddenly rmbr there is morning [PT] and ahhs it dosen't matter whether i got go or not..only 1 set of 18 pumping,crunches,jumping jets,half-squats and run..as well dun go so i sit there with my uniform.then went up and yerhs slack till 7:40.den assembly , OMMS and went back class for silent reading.[:

Silent reading was sooo boring ._. i was talking with yainyi and martin they all and time flew to 8.45 wen we have maths but well,i guess mr wee's too sick to come so continue slacking till 9.30 when we have ms jasmine lim lesson to 11.gosh i tell you how boring her lessons arhs.i was totally knocked-out.i slept from 9:30 to 11 and recess! i love recess th most cos i can finally be together with baby [: so well yrhs peii baby buy her food and was still half-sleeping [: uhhs recess so fast over and i have chem lessons.too boring till i slept again.i was fully-dead then till chinese whr we have change of classes...and i can see baby again![: i was fully awaken again!! [:

Today chinese lesson we have ms fu sitting at th back of classroom.ohgod.she sit there behind me how i use handphone ]: so ....i was listening to lesson and soon th lesson is over.mr du is also taking th video of th lesson too.felt watched cause th camera just behind me [: den i nid to stay back for chinese file..wanted to wait for baby but guess she has her reasons [: hahas.so i sat outside and get tortured. ]: so miss her at tht period but well she has band (: so i continue doing with antony.teacher call antony copy th model copy and he got fed-up and left and told me to tell tchr his home number.luckily xinyu wrote his home number on th table so th teacher can see as reference.[: bleh and so th teacher comes out and call him i guess while i am still suffering.lukily got yansheng,woonkian,zhenshen,xinyu and weijie with me to peii me pass my lonely times (: thks guys [: soon it started raining heavily and i was worried whether baby got umbrella or not but well...guess she is busy hahas.(: so i finally completed my file and was let off at th end.half-dead at tht time.ohwell.i went into hall and play badminton with RSS recreational team awhile before going down to th canteen.

Went to th canteen and saw serene,kiachiyi and syariff.well went over there,bought food and eat my lunch at late afternoon there.[: then here comes peiyi and as usual,she showed me her lady-attitude again.ahs.then got reprimanded from kiachiyi saying i shouldnt treat girl like tht.mindyou.stop acting like you know everything.you don't even know th way we communicate so stop being bossy.i dun give a hell-care whether you are a main-committee member or not.it does not affect me abit.so i went over to huiwen,junwen and vanessa who are obviously better ppl.have a long chat with them and junzhi,peixin and joey walked pass with th potato wedges.wanted one from them and junzhi is holding 2 sticks.he say he cant give me cos th potato wedges too soft,cant peirce.i was like 'diao' and when peixin comes,junzhi gave a stick to peixin and they were dere happy eating.man ._. then i want go lerh den dey give me but nahhs [: joking with you guys only.hahas (:

counselled my sisters xiaohui and xiaojunn and boy..didn't meant to pressure both of you [: i know you can do it de..so u girls need to take care of yourselves (: talked with sekeng,zhenshen and the 'fei[s]' at th busstop while waiting for th bus and yerhs.saw mingfang and th whole band gang.and ariel flung her bottle with water on sekeng which makes him wet.hahas (: and went home on 962 and ate dinner already [:

well well,does it pays to be a good guy even?i wonder what i'm doing nowadays too.puzzled.being a free counsellor is both fun and tiring.i must think of feelings from both sides and hahas.well i must admit i must have been good in counselling ppl [: may consider being a counsellor as my occupation when i grow up.ahhs baby is still doing her homeworks..darn i hate th teachers }: nvr give her time to rest...rest well bendann,because i will be there for you when you nid me and..takecare of your body!{: you have become th-most important part in my life.thanks for your understanding currently [: iloveyou,forever and lots♥ {:

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♥ 7:21 AM

uhhs today's tuesday and its th tournament day.have boring lessons during school time and after school went to play basketball with everyone [: hahas.just got home and i recieve sms from my old mate saying i got competition matches today.luckily he knows i'm forgetful person, hehs thks bro [: so went all th way to bishan..and..ahhs.I MET ALL MY OLD FRIENDS ! [: so happy so long never have a proper match with them lerhs! [: ohno you din't know how ecstatic i'm just now there,throw my own face but its ok [: they all improved so much lerhs..hahas..rite ben?[: i know you 100% on com read my post de..[: but pity (: i won all my matches.hahas.[: i wonder ... if i would meet her again...hahas...

Labels: baby - along th-winds, hold my hand tight

♥ 7:05 AM

This post is specially to address to people who thinks i'm too close to huiwen.xiaohui is my sister and i love shiying lots and lots more [: please do not ask anything more about this issue.thanks(: i'm so happy tht i have a understanding wife {: loveyou,baby (:

Labels: your understanding caused me to fall in love {:

♥ 7:59 AM

finally woke up [; th camp was kinda fun as i was a cadet leader now and no longer a cadet.but being a cadet leader was also bad in a way as every hour it seems as if we are scolded for at least once.well,many things have changed in my house after a short two days.i found hamsters in my house and it is so disgusting.well,they aren't my type._. so my mother begin to give away hamsters for free till now there is only one.its still disgusting to me._. ahhs.my group sec 1 was soooooo rowdy.i felt like i'm dealing with myself when i was in sec1.so i begin to be fierce.act only.but well,they thought i'm.and i got such a lovely partner,prassana,with me,how can i not be able to manage my group well?anyway,my group won the most points group award.hahas.and wad i and prassana get,nothing._. but its ok.looking at their smiles is enough for us{: and we have a captain ball match.me,boonjian,choonlong,kevin,ain,faiqah,zhenxiong,nigel and more in one team and sekeng,zhenbagam,sally,keanhou,jingkai,govin,chinseng sir and more in th other group.th sec1 sec 2 all thought we will win as you see my group got kevin boonjian choonlong me nigel and zhengxiong leh.all th best players in sec3 squad all not strong enough to score even one goal.sekeng and kean hou on th other side keep trying their best to score but choonlong jump too high dey cant even score.so no worries.kevin nigel zhengxiong and me all keep passing to boonjian as he nearest to th "captain" and well , th chinseng sir block i thk more den 20+ balls away.and somemore we playing full court he can still "thunder" th to th other side of th court.in th end its a draw with 0-0 cause its imposible to score at all and everyone is so tired already.ahaha my darling partner prassana from my opposite group de keep failing to get th ball.hahas also xinyi and i have a bond still!haha!we played 1-2-1-2 quite well haha {: all these memories as a cadet leader i will keep deep inside me i promise to everyone {: the night is always unbearable,seriously as its th night when i thk about th things i missed most.

♥ 7:57 PM

today i went to play basketball with others {: ahhs ahhs fun day...den at night i went to th arcade to wait for weiliang...hmm weiliang and amelia ehhs?(: hahas i will escuse myself next time,sorry {: then went ping house at 10pm to have my dinner.uhhs...i am going pack my bag now...my bag for my camp tmr...i..dun feel like going to it..but i know i got responsibilities...but...something is holding back.i know its only 2 days but...seriously...i really.....hmm.hahas D: stupid np.. }:

ahahs!i realised something when i saw amelia and weiliang hitting each other in th-arcade.hahas.i found happiness is really smth simple.th smiles on their face are so big.hahas.i envy de lehhs...}: geez.uhhs thts not th point!i went off-tracked again :D happiness based..hmm..i really hope to see her smile..if rather i would have pass all i have passed to make her smile again i would.i am thinking how foolish thking is winning something important will rather what i really win for.is there something i can get in winning?something i can really learn.nahs.i would rather lose..but..its all for her.i just wanted to show everyone i am not a good-for-nothing and i will do my best in my games although ppl would say its waste of time.but it aren't.not computer games those but..my team that has passed lots with me these few years.well.they have been with me for every emotions i have ever crossed..but..ITS all because of that i wants to protect th things dear and important to me...really really emotional.hahas.a game tht helps me pass all my emotional stages and really i have so many friends there with me.having a tatoo or smoking dosent show a guy's badness definetly.so what.who dosen't have one's own dark side.even i have one.so what if i was once an bad-egg...it dosen't matter.i have to protect my team through th competition i promised...ahh well...i..want to protect her smile..forever.i want to keep her smile in my mind.forever too.maybe thts my reason for trying to protect everything dear to me.iloveher,forever..its true.{:

Labels: any idea how much i really missed you?

♥ 7:55 AM

i guess now everyone should be in kbox bahhs.hahas.my handphone now also no network coverage i also can't recieve call or sms or even sms or call others.maybe all will be well later bahs.well.guess cant help it but feel a little bit low.i don't know myself much either actually.hahas.but i will try.no,i must try.from a simple game to stress i wonder what i have actually been doing all this time.is winning really so important to me?hmm?actually i find it ironically why i feel so fked-up when some retards come and gl me and i got so angry till i lost almost every match.man..whats gone wrong with my emotions...all gone wrong and wild...somemore tmr is camp lerhs...can i even be happy before tmr ? }:

♥ 9:51 PM

hmm.yesterday i easily passed th qualifying rounds for th competition...and yerhs..i got confidence with my own hands{: today has been a long day toos...8am-11am listening to mr wee's lessons quite boring but its also hard on him too to teach a class who uses handphones,vandalising th tables and playing psp.lols!i am also a guilty convict which falls in cateogary one ;X my teacher is fine with it de !{: after tht lesson i went to causeway to gelare with vivian,christine,cherrie,wanqiao and vivian's good choir mate to eat lunch..th things there really costed a bomb so...welllllll...i dint want to eat it D: so vivian,wanqiao and cherrie made me suffer in silence while watching them eat th big big waffle with ice cream and de waffle has maple syrup on it oh my DD: nbm nxt time i can bring ahem* go eat also ma (: den at night i got th stupid training from 7-9 and i was dam hungry and i was only let off at 10...wen baby going slp lerhs...wanted to give her a suprise call but well...people sleeping lerhs so i nvr did it ]; its ok larhs!hahas!:X(let me zi wo an wei awhile ;x )so after th kfc i went to tsz ping's house to watch tv until 11.55pm den i see going 12 am den i decided t go home.wen going home,i told liang tht he will reach his lift and there will be smthing behind him.he scared tio so he walking th long way home.ahahas.actually i was scared myself ._. well,this kind of things cant hide de larhs ;x of cos will scared la!plus i just watch ghost movies ytd.kinda like those kinds of things nowadays.screw me D: not really have mmuch time for basketball nowadays too...but definetly alot time for her xD guess tmr zhanyu wants me to play with them cards well i agree to it but ... hmm..wonder if baby got go schoool or not?(: if she got go den maybe i can walk to school lehs (: ahhs.what am i thinking! .____. i gone nuts lerhs D: iloveher [:

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♥ 9:49 AM

melemel ! uue wan die somemore is it ? xD
& lele wan have the same fate as melmel arhs ? xD
replies to taggies :
xinyu : relinkked (:
faiqah : i relinkk one (:

♥ 3:26 AM

yo guys.been long since i posted.well,kinda busy training my kyo in arcade.sorry everyone.well kyo has become a part of my team and i need to practise it so ... hmm... guess it is kinda important to me.i changed my hp also.man...normally i change hp dam happy de but this time got such a LONG DrAGGY FEEEELING ~ hahas whye lehs is my secret (: i'm not telling de reason!(: tatas.tmr whole day taken by mr wee's maths file.hell for me...but heaven at de beginning when i see her (: x3

♥ 8:09 AM

replies to taqqies :D
faiqah , xiangqi , henry : relinkked (:
melrose : uue're dead tmr !
ariel : ...

♥ 6:29 AM

here to post on behalf of dar (:
hahas coz he help mie post marhs so i help him also (:
anyways im done with mye speech !
finally (:
hmm , i wan go sleep le :X
& thks dar (:
love uue (:
& nightnights xD

♥ 8:11 AM

haiz...so many things happening again hahas.i lost my ez link and some important cards...haiz...this wednesday nid do ic lerhs...wonder how my mother will react because i lost my ez link cards a couple of times lerhs!i also dint wish for it to happen!th worst of all is...i dun even noe how i lost it )): man...i still nid do maths portfolio...die lerh la!term3 going end suddenly so many things stacked on my shoulders...still got many more...haiz...but its ok..(: i noe i have your heart beside mine ((: you gives me th strength to carry on...loveyou,baby (:

♥ 8:07 AM

life is beginning to be boring for me ): man .... dere arent anything that interest me anymore.everyday...every minute i felt tht there is a heavy rock tieing to my heart...man...what's this feeling...); i ....whats going on with me?.....maybe i am changing...i don't know myself either.

♥ 6:50 AM

hahas today is 020309 hahas which is my 1 month with my baby so must post today ! (: hahas.no la today quite happy dunno whye ;x oh ya my chinese got 64 erm....no feelings for it ;x lols ;x k la... (: tomorrow is physics i nvr take physics so erm....also not part of my exams ;x geez.i today dunno talking what also oo.i just see de lan qiu huo...wow de brothership between dong fang xiang and yuan da ying is too nice lerhs.;x i found out i today very random lehs.dunno leiis feel super hyper.she slp lerhs (: like pig lerhs hahas (: no larhs she tmr got exam dats whye must early sleep so left myself high alone lorhs (: love her lots la ((: x3 iloveyou,baby (:

♥ 6:52 AM