Today was relatively a normal day.i had all my lessons as bored as usual.i was a marshal during th healthy lifestyle..but dunno whye during morning i so yearn to see her face rather th hundreds who passed me.its rather wierd [: during npcc,i got say i got long hair again ._. i already got no hair still long hair ]: took th sec2 squad today toos.hahas [:

Had a dream ytd again.its a replica from th past.i dreamt of trekking a forest with kevin,choonlong,chunyong,sekeng,kianwee,syarif,boonjian and nigel.it is very dark in th forest..really dark.i really can feel th atmosphere.suddenly i turned behind and found kianwee missing.so we decided to split up.suddeny i walk halfway through th darkness i heard kianwee's scream and i rush to tht direction and found i was blocked..i was worried for kianwee and when i went back to th meeting point,i found out everyone was missing.th forest is so dark and silent.i was wondering what i will do..i wonder how did i even get into this mess of losing everyone.suddenly i saw a hut in front of me.i went into th hut.there was completely no lights at all.suddenly i can see blurry images of what's in front me.i kicked and pushed th door but th door dint even budge.i was very scared already.den i suddenly saw bendann in front of me.still rmbr i say:why are you here?are u ok?its not safe here.she just look at me and laughed.i feel wierd..i also dunno whye.suddenly she turned into a pile of skeleton and was trying to kill me.waa what i was so dam scared hahas what a stupid dream dhen until th door on th verge of death i really become so emotional tht i ran to th skeleton and hug it and say:i love you.i really do.no matter what you are,or you want my life,i am willing to commit my life to you and love you.i was crying den and i woke up.i suddenly got th damn xin suan feeling.really.its just so...hardpain..hahas.

Being a bad guy is impossible for me.No matter how hard i try to turn th road i start from,its impossible i know to turn back.i wonder sometimes whye i just cant,cant be a badguy and treat ppl badly.no matter how angry i'm,just a word from her and i'm so...happy ._. man.what got into my mind.ahhs i noe [: th love of my wife caused me to change {: of course i will wait for her.dun say for just 2 wks,even 1 year,10 years or 100 years.i will love you and wait for you forever.x3

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